Lovertation

I Love You

A/N: Heyy, I know most of you don't really know me and I don't want people to know who I am, but if you have any personal questions, please leave a comment. I won't reveal everything, but I'm here for your questions and I'd like you to get to know me a bit🫶

Lover:

I woke up at 6am,
because I couldn't sleep anymore.
Last night was full of crying
and thinking about Rep.
What would happen today?
I was just hoping I wouldn't meet the two girls from yesterday again.

I got up and decided to wear baggy clothes today.
My body wasn't skinny enough for short or tight clothes.
I ended up wearing my pastel pink hoodie and blue baggy jeans.
Then I grabbed my clothes for volleyball and left.
I can't eat breakfast.
I would just get fatter.

When I entered the school building,
I saw Folklore and Evermore waiting for me.
„Hey, Lover! Where have you been yesterday?
Our teacher was so mad." Evermore said.
Oh no.
„I um..someone needed my help."
„Rep?" Folklore asked.
„She's blushing. That means it's Rep."
Evermore said.
„Did she fuck you?"
„What!? No."
I said, very embarrassed.
„But you wanted her to fuck you?"
„NO!"
My face was dark red now.
„Come on, leave her alone.
She'll confess to us soon enough."
Folklore finally ended the awkward conversation.
„Let's go to History class.
At least we all have that together."
Evermore said, so we did that.

Reputation:

Today was a horrible day.
The classes I had were my least favorites,
so I decided to skip them all again.
My grades didn't matter anyway.
Yesterday my dad was punishing me so much,
that I almost passed out.
Most of my bruises were covered now,
but any physical touch would make me scream.
My dad managed to bruise every single part of my body.
It was even hard to just sit on a chair.
I would still attend volleyball class,
because that was the only fun thing at this school.
I'll just have to find a way to kick Lover out of the team.
She wasn't even so bad last time,
but she was distracting me very badly.
Why can't she be into girls?

This was the first time I truly had feelings for someone.
Yes, I wanted to fuck her,
but that wasn't everything.
I wanna go on dates with her.
I wanna cuddle with her.
Just do what couples do.
It was actually embarrassing how badly I fell for her.
The things I would do to her...
She was so cute and innocent.
Maybe she hasn't even dated anyone before.

My thoughts were interrupted by the school bell.
Volleyball practice finally started.
I grabbed my stuff and went to the gym.
Before I could enter the gym,
someone called my name.
„Rep! Hey. Can we talk for a second?"
It was Emma, a girl my age,
who I had some classes with.
„Yeah I guess."
„Sooo you know there is 1989's party on Friday, right?"
„Yeah."
„I thought maybe you and me could go together? Like a date?"
Oh damn, this was definitely not what I needed right now.
Emma was pretty, tall and very skinny.
She was also very popular and had a good reputation, not like me.
Maybe she would distract me from Lover though.
I couldn't love Lover.
She was straight.
So I had to move on and what is better to move on than a date with a pretty girl?
„Mh ok." I agreed.
„YAY! Ok, I'll pick you up at 7 then!"
I nodded and we entered the gym together.

In the changing room, I went in the restroom to get changed, so the other girls wouldn't notice my scars and bruises.
I decided to wear grey sweatpants and a long sleeve sports shirt, so no one would notice.
It was way too hot for that,
but I couldn't care about that now.
When I got back in the changing room,
I saw Lover and Emma.
„Hurry up, girls!"
I said and left them alone.

Lover:

Rep left and suddenly I was alone with Emma.
She was staring at me,
waiting for me to undress.
It made me feel so uncomfortable,
but I didn't dare to say anything.
Rep would be mad, if I came late,
so I took my hoodie and my jeans off.
Emma started laughing at me.
„Pink underwear? You're such a baby.
I'm not even surprised you're a virgin."
Wait, how did she know I was a virgin?
It was probably obvious.
I tried to ignore Emma's following comments about my body being too fat and got dressed.
Then we both entered the gym.

„Lover, Emma, you are late.
Do ten push ups, now!"
Rep said, as we entered.
We did what she said,
or at least I tried,
while Emma did hers perfectly.
„Lover, have you been working out?
I don't see a difference."
Rep said.
„N..no, I'm sorry."
Rep just rolled her eyes.
What happened to her?
Why was she being so mean?
After everything I did for her yesterday.

„Come here, everyone!"
Rep yelled.
„Let's play a volleyball game and see how y'all have improved. I'll be watching all of you.
After the game, I'll reveal who made it in the team. Everyone else is out, so don't disappoint me."
For the last sentence, she looked at me.
This was so mean.

„Ok you guys can choose the teams by yourself.
Six people per team."
„But we're 13?" Emma mentioned.
„Oh yeah right. I don't care."
My classmates started to get in teams,
while I stayed there, watching.
„Guys, Lover doesn't have a team.
Emma, can she join yours?"
„What? Of course not. I mean, look at her.
We won't win with her in the team."
Rep looked at me and I almost felt like she felt bad for me.
„Lilly, can Lover join your team?"
„Ew nope. We don't wanna lose."

I was very close to crying now.
„Ugh ok. You all play the game and
our teacher will watch and give me his opinion.
Lover, you're coming with me."
„Ok." I said and followed the tall girl.
She guided me in another room of the gym,
separated from the others.
„Are you ok?"
Rep asked me, as she closed the door.
„Yeah." I said, not very convincing.
„Look, I'm sorry they treat you like that.
I think you're a good volleyball player."
„But.." I started, but suddenly I was crying.
Rep hesitated first,
but then she pulled me in a tight hug.
I buried my face in her shoulder and
was now sobbing uncontrollably.

„It's ok, Lov."
„No, Rep, it's not! Why do you let me take care of you, then you leave and push me away and now you're comforting me? I don't understand.
Are you ashamed of me? Ashamed of being friends with the fat girl nobody likes?
I don't blame you, but why do you always give me mixed signals?"
I started telling Rep everything that was on my mind right now.
„Shh, Lov, it's ok.
I'm not ashamed of you, not at all.
Honestly, you are the first person I feel comfortable with.
But who the fuck said you're fat?
Your body is literally perfect."
„Emma said that and she's right."
„No, she's not. She's jealous of you,
because she'll never be as pretty as you."
„Why would she be jealous of me?"
„Because she likes me a lot and
starts bullying everyone who gets close to me."

„Rep, please just tell me one thing.
Why do you keep pushing me away,
if you feel comfortable around me?"
„I can't tell you, Lov."
My crying got worse and
Rep pulled me even closer.
„Please." I begged her.

„Ok, Lov. I think you deserve the truth."
Rep started and let go of the hug.
She was now staring directly into my eyes.
„I like you, Lov.
I mean, not just like a friend.
I have feelings for you.
You make me feel things I've never felt before.
I thought it would be better to avoid you,
because I didn't want you to think I'm weird.
I mean, you probably think I'm weird now,
but you deserve the truth.
I love you, Lover.
And I know you're into boys and I'm not a boy and I'd totally understand if you never wanted to see me again.
Just know, I really truly love you."
Rep was also crying now.

Oh my god, I couldn't believe what she just said.
She loved me?
„Rep, I-"
„No, Lover! Don't feel bad for me now, I-"
I interrupted her, by putting my hand on her cheek and pulling her into a kiss.
I've never kissed anyone before,
but it felt so right with Rep.
Rep seemed confused for a second,
but then she grabbed my hair and
deepened the kiss.
She was such a good kisser and
I couldn't hold back a little moan.
„Uh huh, not so innocent."
Rep smirked, as she let go of me.
„I love you too, Rep."
I confessed, blushing.

A/N: IT HAPPENED!!!
Was it too early?
Idk, but there will be some drama soon I guess.
Let me know what you think...
~M <3