Hug Hater (Goob x shrimpo fan-fiction)

chapter 10 - shrimpos past

Ik i said shrimpos past will be revealed in chapter 12 but im just full of surprises. 😛😛😛
Also gore and self harm warning.

Shrimpos pov:

I had just made it to my room and immediately felt regret, why would i say no to him, he is what i wanted for the past 2 months. He is what i dreamed about being with, what i cried about in nightmares WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. Why am i such a stupid toon, why am i the one who pushes people away. Goob is the one toon who i felt safe with and i just left him there with his heart shattered to peices. That dream was right i am the problem just cold a cruel and worthless.

10 years ago before the ichor exspiriment

Shrimpos pov:
It was such a decent day you know i weirdly felt happy, which clearly the toon handlers did not like. Specificly sprouts toon handler, they took me to a staff only room. He beat me and hit me till i was on the floor bleeding ichor everywhere as they locked me in the room. I cried for them to let me out until i passed out from loss of ichor. And that went from a rare occurance to daily, i felt abused so i just had to be a rude bully. I learned i could never trust these people who said they were gonna take care of me, no us toons, and just started pushing away anyone who tried. And back to present day i guess i just kept that trauma with me.

Present day:

And i feel terrible using that agenst goob i mean he was the most kind hearted soul in the whole gardenveiw and truly did not deserve it but i refused to believe someone like him could love me. Like how could he love a shrimp like me, i blew it and i dont know if i can fix it. I wanted to go and apologize but it was to late he went to his room and locked the door. I could hear him crying in his bedroom through the door. Yep i effed it up like always. He is gonna be sad for so long and i did it, i felt like absolute trash. I should just go and kill myself its not like anyone would relise i was gone, i could just tell dandy not to revive me. Yeah that is so true, nobody would care i thought to myself knowing i was at the edge of starting another panic attack like what goob saw at the start of 2 months ago. I knew since a long time ago i have had thoughts of offing myself but it was never this bad, and even if goob was there to calm me down it would still be bad. And he was still sad himself and probably not be there incase of a bad event. I knew i did not mean what i was saying but i was remember everything thay has happened. My trauma episodes normally dont get that bad cus i had goob from recent. But now that i close to losing him this is the most stress i have been in as of recent so my mind went back to suicide. I hate thinking about it but it was the only think i could think of. He was what i loved and now that i ruined it i, did not want to live with that self hatred and guilt in myself. I closed my eyes and layed on my bed trying to think of happy things, i did not want to go into a worse episode. I normally i would draw a blank but now i could think of goob and good times we had. But i still felt bad and had a feeling of dread, i still felt super crappy and was aching everywhere. I started breathing heavy also freezing up. It was starting to get bad, so i hobbled my way to the kitchen and luckily found sprout and cosmo. "Guys please can someone pass me some water" i said out of breath and shaking. They saw my state and quickly gave me some water and one of the cookies they were making. I thanked them and sat down and the table. As i ate i was worried about what i was gonna do, i dont know if i can fix this.

Welp thx for reading this chapter guys now you know shrimpos side of the story and why he had his episode in chapter 3, thx for reading and cya next chapter.