My Secret Identity

32| Catching up

Sunday, went by in it's usual routine of going to church, returning tired, but spiritually refreshed. Stacy lay on the bed, her eyes glued to the the television screen. I was hungry but not for a hotel meal.

" Sweetie, I'm going to get some chicken and chips, would you like some ? "

" Yes mommy, thank you "

" Do you want to come with me ? "

" Nah, I wanna watch TV " she said with a cute smile.

" Alright. I'll be back in a sec okay ? "

" Okay mommy . "

" Are you sure you can stay here all by yourself ? "

" Yes, I'll just watch TV "

I knew she could stay alone but she had never really been home alone. Someone was always there . I didn't feel good letting her stay by herself even though I wasn't going to be out for too long. So I had to spoil her fun and make her go with me . Instead of taking our food and y'know, going back to eat it at the hotel, we just decided to eat it there. My mind wandered off to him , his smile, his muscular features, his tight but sweet grip around her waist, when he hugged her ... How he babied Stacy while she was sleeping. Hell yeah ! I loved the sweet soldier. And I wasn't going to let him slip away again. I longed to call him and fix a date but it didn't make sense to me. I didn't want to play into his hands and end up having regrets but still, I wanted him to know that I still really wanted him.  I was lost somewhere in my thoughts when my daughter tapped me and called my name at the same time.

" Mom ! Your phone's ringing "

" Oh, thank you " I quickly responded and picked up my phone. My heart skipped when I saw the name I had used to save his contact the previous day

" Coach 💓 "

" Hi ... Um, it's you ..h.. thank you for yesterday"

" Yo, I read your notes , I understand. We didn't end things well before you left back then but that doesn't mean you should be jittery around me . "

" Yeah ... I guess so ... "

" How is she ? "

" Who ? "

" My little flower ? "

" she's fine" I responded with a smile

" Wanna... Meet up later tonight and catch up ?"

" Um... I ..."

" Okay, I'll come pick you and Stacy up at 6 "

" Alright " 

I didn't know why it was difficult for me to get myself together. I missed him and he'll yeah, I wanted to meet and catch up but I was nervous. Maybe it was all happening too fast, maybe I didn't know how I would face him after deceiving him that I was a guy, maybe ....

" Mommy, you're not eating your food "

I suddenly didn't feel hungry, I just wanted to go back to the hotel and think of how I would face him after two solid years.

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Stacy was dressed in a cyan coloured gown, with yellow spots .

" Is he really taking us out  mommy ?"

" Yeah "

" Are you happy ?"

" Of course I'm happy honey, why ?"

" You don't look so happy"

" I'm happy baby, I'm just a little nervous"