butterfly 𐦍

🩰 okay?

its currently 5 pm and im still locked in my room. why did he do this? he shouldve ended things before if he knew that it would go public anyways. or did he want to hurt me? no he isnt that kind of person to do such things. i know my boy and he has done so much for me, why would he throw his time away just for fun? i have to talk to him, but he hasnt texted me after our call. maybe it is what it is after all?

just as im laying in my bed confused, drowning in my own thoughts, i hear someone in front of my door. im pretty sure its not haewon or eunchae, since they know i want to be alone. maybe its jungwon?

,,nabi?", the voice says, carefully stepping inside my room. i immediately recognize the voice.

,,jungwon what are you doing here?", i answer as he runs to me, pulling me into a big hug. i dont hug him back even though i want to. i only want to feel him against my skin after everything, him rubbing my back and kissing my head. and i dont think i would ever want it to be someone other than jungwon. he notices me not hugging him back and immediately pulls away and sits on top of my bed, right infront of me.

,,i know you didnt expect me here and you may not want to see me right now but i dont want you to overthink this situation any longer. i want to make it clear to you and explain everything, without any secrets left. will you let me explain?", i nod in response. as he tells me everything, i cant stop looking at his passionate eyes. ive never seen him this honest looking and serious as i do right now.

,,so it all started last year in february, after my birthday. someone started leaking my address, my phone number and even pictures from my camera roll. the picture you saw, was from the mama awards last year and this is the same girl i had a duo performance with. she was a really touchy person and i think she has had a little crush on me, but i didnt have one interaction with her again after that performance. but this ,,stalker" that i have, showed me this picture yesterday before uploading it. they called me and said they would post it and send it to those pages like dispatch, koreaboo and some more if i didnt break up with you. of course i wont let that person disturb my private life and my love life, so i said i would take legal action this time even harder, because i was too kind to them the last time they tried to ruin my life. i dont want you to think anything bad about me so i wanted to come and talk about this personally. i missed you so much. i wouldnt want to do this to you ever. i want it to be you and me, forever.", does he want me to start crying again? i dont think i have any tears left for me to cry.

,,i believe you jungwon, i love you so much. thank you for doing this", i thank him and pull him in for a hug now.

,,a good boyfriend should do this. look what i got you", he pulls away, which leaves me whining cause he went out of the room.

,,what are you hiding there?", i ask, he has something behind his back as he walks back to my bed again. suddenly, he pulls out a teddy bear to which i gasp. i take the teddy bear, that is our son now, and tuck him under my bed sheets where my other stuffed animals are.

,,i love you", he tells me, in a very very soft tone. i immediately take his jaw in my hands and pull him in, placing a little kiss on his lips. i missed his pillow soft lips on mine. the rest of the evening we spend watching movies and scrolling on tiktok, while haewon walks in to see if everything is okay. jungwon also posted an explanation for his fans, which was very much needed.