Stay Out Of My Way (Scogan)

You're mine

Tired, Logan was physically and mentally tired. Last night was intense, he almost left and Scott brought him back. He threatened to rip Scott's neck the way he did his bike but the other man stayed put. He made him hot chocolate, he put his clothes away, he brought warm blankets into the garden room for him, and made him some of the best chicken soup he'd ever had.

Scott did most of the talking to where Logan listened, he wanted to understand what had happened and why it happened. The memories still lingered in his cloudy mind.

-Last night in the Garden Room-

Scott made sure Logan was warm, gave him some of his favorite soup and sat him down in the piles of flowers. It was now or never, Scott needed to talk and make it quick before Logan grew out of his patience.

''I'm sorry for running off like that, I got scared and it confused me just as much as it did you. I wanted to kiss you for the longest but while kissing you, I hadn't thought about Jean until it was too late. I should have told you that I needed to talk with her or see if I still felt for her in a way I used to. But instead, I ran away like some stupid wimp. I didn't mean to make you feel bad, Logan.''

Scott grabbed the other mans hand, feeling it twitch against his but he wasn't going to let go until they have all their shit on the table.

''I'm not good at these types of things, Jean wasn't my first girlfriend but she was the first one that I thought I'd fall forever in love with, the one I thought I would marry and have children with. I'm not even gay, I don't find men attractive or even handsome so that's what had my heart and mind twisted up so much.''

Logan sniffled once more

''After meeting you, I thought we'd have been bumping heads until one of us finally ended up dead. But the more I stuck around you, fighting or not...I had these inner thoughts I didn't think I had, thoughts about your smile, the spark in your eyes when you say something clever, the way your body moves when we're in the Danger Room. I thought it was jealousy at first, that I was jealous of you because of your strength and good looks but once I really started looking at you...after our big fight, it wasn't just about jealousy but how much I so badly wanted to touch you in a gentler way.''

Scott slid his fingers in between Logan's shivering ones.

''When I ran off, I had to find Jean. I told her that I didn't feel IN love with her but that I still have love for her, as a friend. I don't get those fluttering feelings with her that I get around you, even when you're cussing at me or throwing insults my way.''

Scott chuckled

''But I kind of like the things you do, they're never boring. They're not the same things every damn day, I don't know what you're going to do next or where your words come from but it always sets this fire inside of me.''

Neither of them didn't know who moved first but they were much closer than they were before.

''She kissed me, hoping that we still had something there but please believe me that it wasn't us trying to make it work. What happened, happened because I couldn't do it anymore. I can't fake a feeling with somebody when my heart keeps beating for somebody else.''

Logan's steady breathing picked up, eyes going from one side of Scott's face to the other.

''Please, Logan. I'm not saying we have to do what partners do but please give me this chance to show you that you're the only person I can truly see myself with...if you want, if you see me with you. I promise I'm not pushing you into giving me some sort of answer but let me at least try and be the person for you.''