Hers to Love

Chapter 22

Amir doesn't know what to say to Maria. Every time he thinks about her, the words just won't come. It's really messed up—he wants to see her, to talk things out, but the thought of facing her after ghosting her fills him with embarrassment. He knows he should reach out, explain himself, but he can't even figure out where to start. He's stuck in this confusing limbo, torn between wanting to make things right and being too ashamed to even begin. The whole situation feels like a tangled mess, and he's unsure how to move forward.

He feels stuck in a complicated situation with Maria. It's not just about finding the right words or dealing with the embarrassment of ghosting her—being with her is complicated on so many levels. He's torn because, on one hand, there's a genuine connection with her, something that feels different from the casual interactions he has with other women. But on the other hand, he's constantly reminded of the barriers between them—personal, emotional, and even practical. The thought of crossing those barriers is daunting. He wants to be with her, but he's also afraid of what it might mean for both of them. It's a struggle between his feelings and the reality of their situation, between what he wants and what he knows might be best. And in the midst of it all, he's left confused, unsure of which path to take.

The age difference between him and Maria is another significant factor weighing on Amir's mind. He's young, with so much ahead of him, and the idea of being with someone significantly older complicates things even more. It's not just about what others might think, but also about where they each are in life. He's at a stage where he's still figuring things out, exploring, and sometimes just enjoying life without too many commitments. Maria, on the other hand, has already experienced a lot more, and he knows she might be looking for something different—something more stable or serious.

This difference in age makes him question whether he's really ready for what being with her could mean. He worries that he might not be able to give her what she needs or that he might end up hurting her because he's not fully settled himself. The more he thinks about it, the more complicated it seems. He's left wondering if he should follow his heart, despite all these challenges, or if he should step back before things get even more difficult.

Amir finds himself increasingly torn, and the more he thinks about it, the more he wonders if maybe he should just stay away from Maria. The complications keep piling up—the age difference, the uncertainty he feels about their future, and the deep emotional confusion. Every time he considers getting closer to her, these concerns hold him back, making him question whether it's worth pursuing something that feels so fraught with potential pitfalls.

Staying away might be the easiest option, even if it's not what his heart wants. He doesn't want to hurt her, and he's afraid that if they keep moving forward, the differences between them will eventually cause more pain than joy. It's not just about his own fears or confusion; he genuinely cares about Maria and doesn't want to lead her into something that might end badly.

But walking away isn't easy either. The thought of losing whatever connection they have is painful, and he knows it's going to be hard to let go. Yet, deep down, he wonders if staying away is the only way to protect them both—from disappointment, from misunderstandings, and from the inevitable complications that their relationship would bring. It's a difficult decision, one that he's struggling to make, caught between his feelings for Maria and the voice in his head telling him that sometimes, the best thing to do is to step back before it's too late.