Shivian love story

Letter to vivian

Siobhan sits there in deep thought about what she is going to do about her feelings for Vivian and how she's going to explain everything so she decides to write Vivian a letter.

My dearest Viv,
I'm sorry things have turned out this way I understand if you're mad at me about this whole situation I would be too if it was the other way around. I wish I could turn back the clock and say no but he's forcing me into this marriage he said if I don't he's going to tell everyone I'm into women.. he found out about our meetings some how I don't know how he did but he has and he's told me if I don't marry him he's going to announce in front of everyone that I'm gay. And I can't have that announce to everyone not yet I'm not ready the only other person that now knows is you and I have feelings for you since the first day I saw you I couldn't help but admire your beauty and your gentle smile you treated me like I was some sort of royalty like I meant something to somebody. I felt like I deserve to be loved you made me feel that and I will forever cherish our memories together you've opened a whole new world to me and brought out the real me nobody has been able to do that until you came into my life my sweetest Viv please forgive me I know it not the ideal situation and I would much rather be with you and marry you but I know that couldn't happen and you probably hate me right now. I love you so much my love and I don't know what I'm going to do without you, us not talking and doing everything to avoid each other is killing me, I'm nothing without you, my life is empty without you, I feel incomplete without the soft touch of your skin when you brush my hair out of my face, my heart beats faster around you my stomach feels like I've got butterflies going in circles. Your beauty astounds me I can't help but feel compete around you, you make me feel like it's okay to be myself, like I don't have to hide behind a mask. You brought me out of my shell. I smile more around you, I laugh a lot more around you and I cry a little less around you. The day I met you was the greatest day of my life because you shown me what true love feels like and how true love should feel and be I will hold on to that moment forever until we can be together because one day I'm going to get the courage and leave roger in hopes that you would want me if you feel the same way about me I don't know if you do feel the way I do towards you. I will love you forever my Viv your the best thing to ever happen to me, I felt my spark coming back out but as soon as I left you and come home that day after our meeting I felt my spark fade away. I don't want to lose my spark again Viv I need you, I want you, I want to be with you. I want to be your girl, I want to be in your arms day and night, I want to wake up beside you in the morning and kiss you good morning and go out on cute dates with you. You saved me without knowing it in ways nobody understands, you've healed my heart when you weren't the one who broke it, you mended a soul you didn't shatter in the first place I love you with my whole heart and more my beautiful Viv. I can't live without you I swear one day I will be yours and we will have the life I've dreamed of having with you When I lay in bed at night I force myself to go to sleep just so I can dream about you and your beautiful smile when you see me my sweet Viv the way your face lights up makes me feel warm inside. I wanted to kiss you when I saw you in the coffee shop but I didn't know if you felt the same or if you do feel the same and we'd only just met I didn't want to make it uncomfortable for you my love. You are the sun that shines through when I'm in a dark place the thought of you pulls me out of it.

Love your
Bon-Bon