"So everything's okay now?" Jake raised an eyebrow when we got on the bus.
"Speak, me, you, outside. Now." I told him. "CC I'll be in in a moment."
Jake came outside and we sat on the ground.
"Jake, CC asked me if I had feelings for you.. And, well, I honestly didn't know what to say."
"Well what did you say."
"I told him I wasn't going to lie, that I have been thinking of you that way."
"You have?"
"Yeah, I" I paused."I wanted to kiss you last night, but, I didn't want you to feel rebound."
"Really?"
"Yeah, but I just, I don't know how to feel, I love CC but you are just so sweet and You are a lot like Robert in that way and" I looked at his lips. "And I really want to kiss you but it would be wrong and oh my gods. I cant even. I am a band whore."
"How are you a band whore?"
"I went on a date with Ash, then I started dating CC and now I want to kiss you."
"Then kiss me."
"I can't" My eyes kept looking from his eyes to his lips.
"Athena, I don't know if you have noticed, but CC seems to take intrests in other people easy."
"It was one time!"
"He's done it to other girls too."
"I'm not other girls."
"Look, I don't want to make you upset, I'm sorry."
"Jake..?"
"Yeah?"
"If things don't work out with me and CC..?"
"Sadly, I will still be waiting."
"I hope you don't have too, I hope you fall in love with some girl and get married and love eachother forever."
"I wish the girl I love loved me back."
"Maybe if the girl you loved wasn't dating one of your close friends and band member she would love you too." I looked away from Jake "Maybe she already does."
He took two fingers to push my chin so I was facing him again.
"Jake this can't happen. I'm sorry." I got to my feet and walked away.
As I walked down the pavement I put my headphones in and started listening to A Rocket To The Moon. The song Like we used to came on. I used to cry to that song, all the time. All the things in the song, are all things Robert would do.
I honestly missed Robert still. I felt like I wanted to go back to englend, back to the old days, back when things were not as hard as they are now. When I first started doing covers. When me and Robert would just sit around and take pictures and goof off. Sure, me and CC goof off.. just, it's not the same. Maybe I am not ready to be in love. Maybe I need to be alone.
I think about you everyday came on. I was now crying as I walked. It really was kinda gloomy outside, begining to rain. I put the hood of my jacket up and kept walking.
I started to sing to the music. "You can say that you don't miss me I think about you everyday." Bad Idea, my voice broke in the middle of the word everyday.
I was really glad that no one was stoping me, no one knew who I was.
My phone decided to play a different song, one that was the worst at this moment, it was our song, me and Roberts song. It was Perfect For Me. I quickly changed it. I put on Motionless In White. I started nodding my head as I walked, soon I was jumping and kicking and screaming.
