Free Body| Chanlix | Changlix (Poly)

Recapitulation

Felix stood in the dim hallway, his heart pounding as he approached the entrance to the underground chambers. The air was thick with the scent of damp earth and something darker, more melancholic. He had left their baby in the care of a trusted babysitter, knowing he needed to find Chan and bring him back. He couldn't let things spiral any further.

Pushing open the heavy door, Felix descended the narrow staircase, each step echoing in the cold, empty space. As he reached the bottom, his eyes adjusted to the dim light, revealing Chan sitting on the floor against the stone wall, his knees drawn up to his chest. He looked up as Felix entered, his eyes bloodshot and filled with pain.

"Felix..." Chan's voice was rough, barely above a whisper. He looked like a man who had been through a storm, broken and battered, but still holding on to the last vestiges of his strength.

Felix approached slowly, his heart breaking at the sight of Chan so defeated. He knelt beside him, reaching out to touch his arm. "Chan, we need to talk. I can't keep seeing you like this."

Chan turned his gaze away, his voice trembling. "I'm sorry, Felix. I've messed everything up... I'm afraid I'm going to lose you. I'm afraid I'm going to lose our baby."

Felix's heart clenched at the raw vulnerability in Chan's voice. He moved closer, his hand resting on Chan's shoulder. "You're not going to lose us, Chan. But you have to tell me what's going on. What's making you so scared?"

Chan's shoulders slumped as he let out a shaky breath. "I... I've never told you this, but in my past, I was in a relationship where we tried to have children. We tried and tried, but it never happened. It was my biggest failure... and it tore us apart."

Felix's eyes softened with understanding as he listened. He could see the depth of Chan's fear and the weight of the past that still haunted him. "Chan... I didn't know. But that doesn't mean it's going to happen again. We have our son, and he's healthy and strong."

Chan's hands trembled as he covered his face, his voice breaking. "What if it doesn't happen again? What if he's the only child we ever have? I want to be a good father, Felix, but I'm terrified... terrified that I'm going to fail you both."

Felix felt his own tears welling up as he pulled Chan into his arms, holding him tightly. "You're not going to fail, Chan. You're a wonderful father, and I love you so much. But you have to stop pushing me away."

Chan clung to Felix, his body shaking with silent sobs. "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry. I've been so scared that you'll love someone else more, that you'll leave me for Changbin. I can't lose you, Felix. I can't."

Felix pulled back slightly, cupping Chan's face in his hands as he looked into his eyes. "Chan, listen to me. I could never love anyone more than I love you. My heart was stolen by you a long time ago. I chose you, and I'll keep choosing you, every day."

Chan's breath hitched as he searched Felix's eyes, looking for any sign of doubt. But all he saw was the love and sincerity in Felix's gaze. Slowly, the fear that had gripped him began to loosen its hold, replaced by a spark of hope.

"I love you, Felix," Chan whispered, his voice trembling with emotion. "I love you so much it hurts."

Felix leaned in, their lips meeting in a soft, tender kiss that quickly deepened as the tension and fear melted away. They kissed each other desperately, pouring all their emotions into each touch, as if trying to make up for all the time they had lost.

The cold stone floor of the chamber was forgotten as they lost themselves in each other, their bodies pressed together as they gave in to the need for closeness. Felix's hands roamed over Chan's body, pulling him closer, as if he could anchor him in the present and keep him from slipping away again.