Life in summer

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If I thought Vijay was avoiding me on Monday, then I don't know what to call his behaviour with Lylah.

He is still very helpful when she needs helps and still nice to her but he is keeping his distance.

No joking around, no small talk, no coffee break with her.

Only work !

Vijay made it very clear it wasn't a date last Friday since other from the office where there as well.

They had drinks and chatted till late and Saturday he was busy with his " thought", at least that's what he says.

The two of us planned to go for drinks after work.

I'm currently spinning on my chair and keep looking at the time, 5.15 pm

If he still hasn't finish his last report, I'm leaving without him and meeting him directly at our usual spot.

" How long do you need to finish this? I don't want to be spending my Friday night in the office. "

" I just need to make a couple more copies of these documents and then we are good to go "

He is so emerged in his work that he hasn't touched the coffee I brought 20 mins ago.

He has his specs on, which is rare to see him wearing them. He would rather have a blurred vision than clear. He has loosen his black tie, a couple of the top buttons of his white shirt is undone and you can see his neck tattoo slightly visible.

When I first met him and saw his tattoo I asked if wasn't that inappropriate in the work environment. His reply was a laugh but our manager said it was cool as long as it's not extremely visible.

His tattoo is the musical note DO. It is small and cute, it's on the right side of his neck approximately five or six centimeters above his collarbone. His love and passion for music is the reason why he had it done at 21, this was his first tattoo now he got 2 more which he refuses to tell me where they are.

There is it...now he is rolling his sleeves up, you can see his watch on the left wrist and on the right one, his sliver Kara, it is usually worn by people who practice Sikhism.

I love that he is so proud of his Punjabi culture. I didn't expect him to be so well cultured when he told me he was born and raised in London. He has all the answers if you have questions.

Myself being born in France but having  Mauritian parents, I unfortunately never learnt anything from the culture instead I was always told to adapt to the French culture, to be part of it and I think now looking at Vijay I'm extremely jealous and it inspires me to be like him.

There is something attractive about him in this moment and I don't know what.

I can't take my eyes off him.

Him being serious and focus is something I always admire but right now it is making him look extremely hot.

He is now gathering the papers he made copy of and he doesn't notice me coming closer to him.

He smells so good, I need to ask him which perfum it is. He hasn't smelled like cigarettes since Wednesday, I guess whatever was on his mind has been cleared out, I still don't know what it was.

" Can you help me staple these please, I haven't had the coffee yet and I really need a break from all this papers. I'm feeling sick just by looking at them. Promise we leave in 10 min"

Not realising I slowly creeped behind him, he let's out the most unexpected scream and causes me to fall from laughing.

"Jeez Kushi why are you behind me? Do you want me to die ? "

" well I wanted to scare you "

Laughing himself he offers me his hand so I can get up but he pulls me up with too much strength that my body crushes on him. My hand lands on his chest where I can feel his heart beating fast, almost as fast as mine.

"Vij-"

It was as if he got an electric chock, his eyes winden and he let go of me.

He turns his back to me and start fumbling with some papers, his movements are clumsy causing some of them to fall on the floor.

"I think you should go, I'll call you when I'm done and then we go for drinks. "

He pauses then scrunches down gathering a few of the papers. The back of his neck has turned red just like a tomato maybe his is embarrassed but he sounded gentle more than usual when he tells me to go, so I tell him I'll wait for his message and leave.

We are not going for drinks, I reply to Vijay's message saying I am too tired and want to sleep early so we should reschedule. 

I don't know what happened in the office but it was weird. 

I feel weird and embarrass. 

Vijay is my friend, I shouldn't be thinking of him in any other way. 

The fact that I wanted to kiss him when he was so close to me, makes me cringe every single time I think about it.

I can't face him tonight, who knows what will I do or say if I get tipsy.

It's better to avoid each other until tomorrow.

Maybe until monday would be the best...