Days of Healing

Day 2

Last night I had a dream about her

When I approached, she looked at me like she wasn't so sure

To endure all the pain that I inflicted on her

I could hear her heartbeat, it slowed to a murmur.

Tears in her eyes they raced down her pretty face

And when she ran away, I tried to give chase-

I was denied so my mind could truly be humbled

And when I felt my heart, the pain was now doubled.

That's trouble because I'm now split in two

The question I have is "What can I do?"

And it's true, my closed heart brought forth a closed mouth

Because being open is something I know little about

I have scars so deep I'm still bleeding inside

Scarlet letters to the T, baby I can't hide

I was hoping one day this pain would subside

But I let ride, and it submerged us within its tide-

It's my fault for not putting up a fight

But I promise on my life I will make things right

I can't expect that change to happen over night

And as of right now, we're over tonight.

You lost a piece of yourself and I'm the one to blame

Fortune and fame? I deserve to be burned in a flame

But the way you view me isn't quite the same

You said "You must fight back. Give yourself some time-

To heal, explore your heart and find what's real

Because to me you are only trying to make an appeal

Look inside yourself and discover what is the deal

Because it's no good for your heart to be steel."

Who am I to object since I know it's the truth

And now sit here bleeding in this booth

I don't want to be known for spreading hurt to you

So, I must excavate my heart so I can truly love you.