Egotistical

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   Alonso had to much on his mind, everyone could see it. The past few days became a blur- he couldn't remember most of them expect the fact that Nassiah wasn't getting any better. He wasn't declining per se but they said they don't know how long his body would hold out. Alonso knew his husband was strong but he was tired before all of this- mentally they all been tired for some time now.

  "Sir- I want to stay hopeful but honestly I don't know what will happen next. He been holding on for longer than I would've medically suggested" his doctor announced. Alonso Tash and Donnie sat around Nassiah's bed just talking until the doctor came in with an update.

  "So you don't know shit?" Donnie asked Tash just smacked his arm. "No offense"

"No- in this case I don't know shit" she answers honestly. "He has help breathing- we had to resuscitate him so many times but his brain activity looks good- his heart is getting stronger. But it's clear his liver was already weak from drug use so our biggest thing is that doesn't start declining too" she told them. "His lungs already weak- from probably smoking so much. His body has been patched up it looks like at home from multiple bullet wounds- stab wounds and who knows what else- he's lucky he made it this far"

  "So what you saying?" Alonso finally spoke up.

  "I'm saying pray- we are on his timing. It could go either way"

"Of course we on his fucking timing" Donnie mumbled and the Doctor just gave them a small smile.

  "Keep talking to him though- we assume he can hear you guys- but truthfully who knows"

"He don't listen when he was conscious I bet he is now" Tash joked.  She left them alone and Alonso just looked at his husband. He couldn't do this right now- he still had to get ready for his sisters funeral later that day.  "Zo he gonna be good, you know his ass just stubborn"

"And his daddy should be here tomorrow- so beware that nigga bout stupid as fuck" Donnie warned eveyrone but Alonso didn't mind Nassiah's dad. Obviously him and his son had their own issues but he could tell the man cared in his own way. He sent money for the kids every Christmas and called Nassiah every year on him and Alonso's anniversary because that's the day he blessed the world and took out his whore ass mother. His words not Alonso's. "Someone need to call Mac- and tell him bout Nassiah" Donnie butted in.

"Oh yeah? Why can't you do it? Ain't that yo wife?" Tash joked but Donnie just side eyed her.

"Maurice put me back in the race and I'll kill someone before they marry his ass"

"His ass should've left you alone" Alonso mumbled and Donnie looked back at Alonso with a hurt expression. "You know I love you like a brother D- but Maurice is my friend and all"

"Yeah yeah- whatever Zo. I ain't never said that shit to Nassiah about you"

"I didn't marry someone else and hide it for fifteen plus years"

"Alright damn- you got it" Donnie mumbled.

"I gotta go- keep me updated"

"I'm gonna come with you Zo-

" You don't got too-

"I am, Donnie gonna sit here and we will go. You got a lot of shit going in. You know we got your back" Tash pressed on.

"Yeah Zo- don't worry bout it. Me and Nas gonna sit and chill like the old days. But instead we can't smoke and we sure can't shoot and he's not going on a angry rant but still like the old days"