Unspoken Lyrics | Huh Yunjin x Female Reader

Part 11

Y/n POV

When you woke up, you had a light headache. Understandingly so, you had drank quite a bit the earlier night.

You couldn't even remember how you got into bed. As you looked around your room, you could see that you weren't the cleanest when drunk.

Normally, your room looked neat but this morning, it was chaos.

On your desk was your chemise, on your floor were your pants and on your nightstand layed one sock. You didn't know where the other one went.

You layed your head back down onto your pillow and tried to remember what had happened.

You could remember that you met up with Ryujin and told her about your latest updates with Yunjin...

You shot back up into a seated position like lightning just stroke you.

"There is no fucking way this happened. OMG. OMG. OH MY FUCKING GOD", you panicked full on, as you remembered what you had done or at least tried to do.

"Am I stupid? Why did I do that? I cannot believe myself. Fuck" you mumbled while pacing your room.

It seemed like that has become a habit of yours whenever you panicked.

And you were panicking at this very moment.

You could feel the way, your breathing started to stagger. The only sound you heard was your beating heart and it sounded like you just ran a marathon.

"Omg I cannot have a panic attack right now. If Yunjin was here, she could help me again.. No, no. I don't need her to get through this. She's the whole reason why I'm having a panic attack in the first place. Wait. What. No. I'm the one to blame. I did that. It's definitely not her fault".

Your thoughts were drowning you.

There was so much noise going on in your head but then you heard a knock.

"Y/n, can I come in? I heard you drank yesterday", Kkura asked kindly but there was definitely concern hidden somewhere.

You didn't trust your own voice.

"Fuck. Should I let her in? But.. No, I've already told them. I don't want to be alone right now".

You walked towards your door and opened it with trembling hands.

Kkura smiled at you but before she could say another thing, her smile dropped when she saw your teary eyes and your trembling body.

She immediately stepped into your room, closed the door softly and guided you towards your bed.

She didn't say a word but just hugged you tightly.

The hug went on for quite a while. However, she let go of you when she noticed that your breathing was stable again.

You were thankful that she was there with you. Even without saying any words, her presence was enough to calm you down.

"Thank you for being here", you looked at her as you wiped your tears away.

"No problem. Thank you for letting me in", she smiled warmly.

"Do you want to talk about it?" KKura asked after a while of silence.

You knew that she wouldn't be mad at you if you didn't tell her but you wanted to.

"Yesterday, I tried to kiss Yunjin but she pushed me away. I don't even know why I tried it in the first place. I guess, it was the confidence I received through the alcohol and then the words from Ryujin in the back of my mind".