The Blood Pact

Remus

Remus stands in shock and horror feeling betrayed by the girl he loves. His eye are wide with anguish, his best friend and "secret" crush is in love? With the enemy?

I watch as Vegas eyes go wide, I mirror her actions as we both look at Severus with shock. I have no clue why Vega would be so shocked, I mean they are dating aren't they?

Vega wrist slips from my hand, "Is... is that, true Vega," I say in a small whisper.

She looks sad and defeated, her conflicting body language only serves to confuse me. Shouldn't she be happy that she's in a relationship? She barely nods, her hand moves back to her palm press on the cut again and my heart sinks at the sight, I can only wonder what she's thinking in this moment.

"You-", My voice cracks as my eyes water slightly, "You're with... him?"

She looks down at her feet silently and I think I can see tears forming before her long, dark brunette hair covers her face. I feel my heart break into a million pieces, her guilty look only confirms it. I vaguely see Severus' smug face in the background as he walks off from the chaos he has caused, but all I can focus on is Vega's distressed and dismayed face, hidden from me behind her hair.

I stand there for a moment trying to piece together the tornado of thoughts. It all feels like some kind of cruel joke.

"But, but... why?", I finally croak out, my eyes pleading for answers.

I need to understand why she would choose his and not... and not me.

I take a small step forward, my voice laced with heartache, "Why him Vega? Why not- Why not me?"

"I-", Her voice breaks, she looks up at me and I can see how divided she is; She wants to tell me I know she does, but somethings holding her back.

I watch her struggling, my heart breaks further each moment I stand to listen. I hate seeing her like this, I can see it, the conflict and turmoil.

"Please," I beg quietly, my voice cracking with each tear I hold back, "Please say something."

"I'm sorry...", She says quietly in a shaky voice as I see her press harder into her palm.

I look at her, with my heart heavy. The apology does nothing to ease the ache in my chest.

"I don't want your sorrys Vega," I say grabbing her wrist away from her other hand, not baring to be able to watch her art herself any longer, "I just want to understand. Why? Why him Vega?"

She looks like she wants to say something, but stops herself before she says anything.

I step closer yet again, "Answer me damn it!", I finally snap unable to hold back my hurt.

"Did you ever care about me? Or was I just some game to you?!"

A tear falls down her cheek, "Remus I- I- Just-", her voice breaks as she glances over at Severus talking to a group of Slytherin boys.

Her tears only make my heart lurch with anguish as I watch her struggle to forma coherent sentence, "No, don't try to feed me a half truth. I want the whole and complete truth. I deserve that much."

She pulls her hand back gently, "I can't give you that Remus. I'm so sorry," She hides her hand in her robes and it looks as if she's digging into it with nail now.

"Why can't you just give me the truth! Why can't you just tell me what's going on, goddamn it!"

"I'm sorry Remus, I'm so so sorry."

My emotions keep flipping from anger to despair as I go on, "Stop apologizing!", My tone is angry, but my voice is breaking unable to handle this heart break.