One last Chance- Seungjin

8

"Uhm are you ok?" Minho asked
"Oh yea sorry" Seungmin said he held his arms behind his body. Hiding them in being afraid someone would know his secret.
"Yea ok" Minho just shrugged his shoulders and walked away. Minho knew very well that something was wrong, but he didn't wanna push it since he didn't know Seungmin very well.

Seungmin calmed down. He quietly walked down the hall with the razorblade still in his hand along with some toilet paper. He walked into his room, locking the door behind him and frantically searching for a hiding spot where the could hide the razor blade. After he found a good spot he changed sweater to one that didn't have blood on it, rolled toilet paper around his arms since he didn't have any bandages. He put on the new sweater, and someone knocked on the door.
"Hi were you in the bathroom just now?" Felix asked. Seungmin panicked. "What if he knows... what will I do omg" "yes I was" he stammered. "Oh are you alright? There was a blood drop on the floor" Seungmins quick mind got a head of him. He spoke before  he could think about it. "Yea sorry, I got a little nose bleed. It's gone now tho" Seungmin said with a smile. Felix didn't notice anything off at all he just nodded with a smile and bought the cheap explanation.

The last couple of days was hard for seungmin. He had to buy more sweaters because he didn't have enough. He was constantly anxious about anyone knowing his secrets.

1 week, 2 weeks, 3 weeks had gone by and Seungmin and slowly stopped spending time with people. Even his friends who gave him somewhere to live.
Felix and Jisung wasn't annoyed with him, rather they tried to be understanding. Knowing that Seungmin had been thru a lot

*knock knock knock*

"Come in" Seungmin said in a low and tired voice. Felix and Jisung stepped into his room and walked towards his bed, where Seungmin was laying.
"Seung we know that you're struggling right now, and we don't really know what to do. We thought that you might just need to talk to anyone that isn't a part of the friend group. Who doesn't know you personally. So we..." Felix started explaining while Jisung sat the edge of the bed and slowly started stroking Seungmins hair. Trying to give some comfort, but not really succeeding. "We thought maybe you should see a therapist" Seungmin jolted up and slapped away Jisungs hand. "You wanna send me away? You think I'm crazy?" Seungmin whispered.

"Oh no honey, we're just worried and we know you're not crazy. You're just acting a little off right now and we don't know what to do, but maybe some professionals do. We just wanna help you if we can"

Seungmin ended up agreeing and scheduled an appointment for next week

Next week—>

Seungmin woke up not so excited. He dressed himself in clothes he found on the floor. He was pretty sure he didn't have anything clean either way. Bang Chan who already had his license was kind enough to offer a ride to the therapist.
"I won't tell anyone. And just so you know, almost all of us go to therapy. It's not something to be ashamed of" bang chan said as he pulled into the parking lot. Seungmin gave a smile and walked off.

In the waiting room he saw someone he wasn't expecting. He quickly hid behind a wall. This person could NOT se seungmin here. It would ruin everything!