Strip to the core of my heart

15

Minji

When Hanni offered to take me on another date, I wasn't expecting for us to be standing inside of a rage room. I looked over at Hanni who gave me a bat. "Let your anger out, it's what you need." Hanni said as she gave me a soft smile.

She took a couple of steps away from me and watched as I took a step forward and maneuvered the bat and swung it to hit the old TV. I stood still for a second, realizing that it felt nice. I looked back at Hanni and she gave me a nod. I hit the TV again but this time a bit harder.

And that's when I didn't have a single stop, I swung the bat repeatedly, my arms burning with the force I was swinging. I felt every bit of my frustration, the anger I held for years was coming out as I threw the bat to the ground and instead picked up the TV and threw it with my remaining strength.

Remembering how broken I felt when my mother forced me to stay with my father, no matter how much I begged her to take me with her because I didn't want to be like my father.

He hated me the most because I was the only girl and I turned out to be his worst disappointment. I was left to grow up with a man who only saw me as his worst enemy, I was never his daughter, just a portion of clay that he molded.

My mother only looked at me when she found out I had been the one to take the chair at the company. I was just a kid when she abandoned me and took my brothers with her, leaving me all alone in a room where the never-ending torment started.

I let out a scream as I started to throw everything around. I was raging with anger. I was neglected, I wasn't loved, and I grew up with a rope tied to my neck as a discipline. I had the worst childhood ever and I became the heartless person I was.

I hate them with my whole heart, I hate my brothers who only come to visit me when they need money, and I hate the world. But I don't hate Hanni, I never will.

I turned around, my breathing heavy as Hanni looked at me with tears in her eyes. And that's when I realized that my own fell, Hanni came to me and extended her arms for me to go to. And I did just that. I waddled over to her and immediately broke down in her hold.

She whispered comforting words as she hugged me tightly, my arms wrapped around her just to be able to somewhat balance myself. I felt so weak like this, I just couldn't handle it. My feelings have been forced to stay inside and never come out.

But with Hanni, everything just came crashing down on me in a way that lets me know that I'm healing. And maybe that's truly all I needed, and that's thanks to the woman I love.

Yes, I love Hanni. I love her the way I'll ever love anything else.

Hanni is the angel that was sent from heaven to fix me and guide me to be better. I can't even imagine my life without her. It's only been two months since me and her have officially started dating and I'm already ready to get on one knee and ask her to be my life partner.

It's crazy really, but I've figured that love is crazy.

Hanni held me as if I was the most fragile thing to exist and I didn't mind it one bit. Hanni brought the baby out of me. She brought the side of me that I was forced to hide for so many years of my life. And I can't thank her enough for everything that she's doing for me. 

She is broken but she still puts me before herself and it says more than enough about her. My sweet little angel.

"I did right on bringing you here." She whispered and I could only nod as I was finally calming down. "I knew you needed some form of release, and I decided to bring you here for your sake and well-being. I noticed how responsive to aggression you are." I pulled away from her and she gave me a soft smile.

"You're angry at the world, I know that. You probably have the biggest hatred for it because it's always been so cruel to you. But you need to let the bate go. Learn to love it, Minji." Hanni said in the sweetest tone of voice ever.

"I hate them so much, baby. I can't let that hate go." I said and she kissed my cheek. "You don't have to forgive them, Minji. Just get rid of that hatred inside of your heart. I want you to be a better version of yourself and let go of the past that made you the woman with a cold heart." Hanni pressed a gentle kiss on my lips.

"Work with me, Minji. We're doing this together." Hanni said and I gave her a nod. If Hanni wants me to let go of that hate, then I must. She only wants what is best for me.

I leaned in to kiss her softly and she giggled. "Thank you for bringing me here." I thanked and she on smiled as she grabbed my face gently. "I'm going to heal you, Minji. I'm going to fix that broken heart that they destroyed. I'll put the pieces back together and you'll be the good woman I want you to be, got it?" And I gave her a nod.

"I love you, Minji." And my breath hitched as I pulled away from her. I looked at her eyes which only showed so sincerity. "It may be too soon, or whatever. But my heart belongs to you and I don't see myself being without you. You've done everything in your power to show me that you are true about wanting to be with me. And you're doing so much for me, and how couldn't I love you? You're the sweetest angel under that cold persona that you portray." She said this as she ruffled my hair and she scrunched her nose at me.

"You're mine, Minji. And if you were to ever not want me, I'd tie you down and shove you in my closet. Don't question it." And I could only laugh as she gave me that cute smile of hers. "You can tie me down all you want." I teased and she let out a giggle.

"But in all seriousness...I love you too. I'd give you the world if you asked me for it, Hanni. You're giving your all for me, and it's only fair for me to give you more than my all. You deserve someone so much better than me, but I promise to help you heal in my own way." I said as I grabbed her face and she let out a soft smile. "I love you so much." I said before bringing her into a kiss.

"You're my world and so much more." I said and she hopped on me and hugged me tightly. "Ugh! I'm so glad you're mine." She said kissing my cheek repeatedly and I couldn't help but just smile brightly.

She's truly amazing.

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