HIS BELLA

chap. 11

ISABELLA

~ Flashback ~

I covered my ears with my hands trying to stop the shouts coming from downstairs. Pulling my knees towards my face curling like a ball I slid down the wall in a corner trying to get as far as I can .

I wipe my tears which can't stop running my face with my shivering hands . The loud sound of something breaking made me jump in fear and clunch onto my plushie to my heart .

I pull the blanket over myself as I cry relentlessly until my breath becomes shallow, as my eyes bloodshot red and sore .

The six year old Isabella who wanted nothing else but the love from her parents who were her world . Instead of getting bedtime stories like her other classmates she grew up with yelling , arguments between her parents.

I jolted up from my bed sweating and shivering from the impact of the nightmare as I took the bottle on my nightstand with trembling hands luckily no water spilled .

I don't know if I'll ever be able to overcome it . It's embedded deep into my soul it feels like a deep wound which cannot be cured . These are the darkest places inside me which I despise going to .

There were times when I used to get up trembling wanting the voices in my head to stop , wanting someone to be there with me and tell me that everything will be fine , someone to just hold me , to take care of me , someone I can lean on and vent , cry and pour out my pain too . But in return I got echoes of my own cries .

I never had a friend or a person I can lean onto . Until I met Emilia , she made me feel like I matter , she showed me what it feels like having a friend a person who you could trust , who's always there for you . She was there for me when no one was .

Getting out of my thoughts I go to the washroom as I do my morning routine and get showered and leather the vanilla body lotion all over my body as I take a sniff of it making my eyes close in content .

I get dressed into shorts and an oversized cardigan as it was Sunday I didn't have any classes meaning it would be a lazy day with me sprawled over my bed and watching friends and stuffing my face with ice cream sounds like a perfect day to me .

I descended down the stairs as I grabbed the pack of cereals and milk pouring it in the bowl . While having the cereals my mind drifted onto yesterday more specifically on Leonardo. Just by remembering him I felt goosebumps erupt on my hands making it clear on how much effect he had on me .

Being so close to him I got the perfect view of his smooth tanned flawless skin with jawline as sharp as a blade matching his chiseled cheekbones with his cold grey eyes which pierced into my soul seeing through me .

The feel of his bulging biceps I was holding onto still couldn't completely wrap my hands around as they were big like really big that my palms looked small .

He was built to perfection like God himself carved each and every detail to perfection.

The way his deep hoarse voice made shivers run down my spine as it was so demanding almost made me drop on my knees right there on the floor .

As the spoon fell on the floor making a loud thud broke me out of my thoughts in which I was drooling over him . Everything about that man was making me swoon . I have a crush on him .

Although I just met him like a few times , there's just something different about him which just makes me feel things .

It may be too soon to have a crush without even knowing him thoroughly but hey isn't that the whole point of having a crush .

His the only thought on my head and I cannot seem to get him off . I feel like a teenager godd!!

Ignoring I clean my messy room and do laundry getting tired I slump down onto the sofa as I go through my Netflix . I click on  ' friends '  which I've seen a thousand times but I still love it , it cheers me up and lightens my mood every time .

In the middle I hear my phone ringing as I almost spilled the icecream on my phone as I pause the show and pick up the phone .

" Heyyaa " I hear my bestie yelling from the other side making it evident how excited she is about something .

" Hello to you too lia " I reply as I sit stretching my back from the awkward position I was sitting in well you cannot define it as sitting then I wonder why my back pains so much .

"Do you have any plans after exams !? " She asked making me feel she already has something planned on her mind.

" Not really. I was gonna visit mom but she's been busy with her school so I'll be staying in " I really wanted to visit my mom as I miss her so much but I understand she's busy and she works so hard for us . She's someone who I look up to She's the strongest woman I know . She's all I have and I love her with all my heart  .

" Okayy so you're coming with me    then " she exclaimed clapping her hands making me roll my eyes at her .

" Going where !? " I asked being completely baffled as to what she meant .

" Oh yeah . So my oldest brother Dante's anniversary is coming up so there's a huge party thrown in my home town italy . So I wanted you to come with me . " She explained making me anxious already about how they would be and plus I'm not really good with parties and all .

" I don't know lia it's your family function I'd be an outsider and I don't even know anyone . I don't wanna be a burden to you " I replied to her . I really don't wanna be a burden with all the travelling and all.

" Shut up girl . You can never be an outsider to me and never call yourself a burden . I want you to go with me . And Matteo and Leonardo would be there and you know them ." She said .

On hearing Leo's name I felt warmth washing all over my body . It felt as if I forgot how to breathe with my heart thumping loudly . I felt butterflies erupt in my stomach just by knowing he's gonna be there .

" Isa ...isa..you there ? "  I broke out of my thoughts as I hear lia making me realise that I spaced out.

"Yeah yeah I'm here . When are you gonna though !?" I replied to her while trying to calm my accelerated heart which forgot to slow down.

" Yayy  !! I knew you'd agree . I'll let you know the details later on "  she said in excitement making me giggle at her .

After talking for about an hour we ended the call . My thoughts were still stuck on him . I'm gonna see him...