He has returned (Gravity Falls fanfiction)

chapter nine

NOTE: TW: Panick Attack. I'll make another note when its over, for anyone that needs it :)

Bill now was alone in the bathroom. He didnt immedietly get into the shower and do as he was told. He sat down there and then on the cold bathroom floor. Everything was getting too much fot him. He had never felt this overwhelmed. His normal feelings and human feelings were constantly mixing together, fighting against each other. The problem was, that the human ones were winning. He sat there, staring into nothingness thinking about what all had happened to him. The Axolotl has betrayed him, Mary was making him do stuff he did not want to in a body that wasnt his own, the Pines were making fun of him and putting him through pain he has not experienced in a long time. The Pines were at fault. Especually Ford. He was the one that had known him best. How could he do this to him? They should all bow down in fear and do as Bill commanded them. While thinking, he realized something wet streamed down his face. He saw the drops hitting the floor, forming small puddles. What was happening to his body? He reached to his eyes. They were wet, the origin of the liquid. Could eyes also sweat like the rest of his body? He put out his tounge and liked his cheek. It tasted salty. The more he thought about the situation and pitied himself the more drops fell down to the floor. He couldnt stop the sob from escaping his mouth. He hoped that Ford didnt hear him. He wanted to get up, escape, use his powers and destroy everything out of anger as he had done so many times already. But his body stayed put, so heavy like it was glued to the floor. His breath was getting faster and faster. What was going on with him? His whole body was getting goose bumbs, everything felt on edge, the slightest noise hurt his ears, more tears come coming, the sobs were getting louder. Bill was loosing control over his body. He tried to cover his ears with his hands but the loud sound was actually his blood rushing through his ears. He had never went through something this horrible before. His head felt like it was about to burst open, cracked in half.

NOTE: TW over.

"Bill. Breathe in calmly with me please" Mary interfered. She had realized that Bill couldnt handle this alone just yet and she had no idea yet how such strong emotions would manipulate her plan.

Bill hadnt heard her the first time so she repeated herself and breathed in a calm and gentle way so Bill would be abel to imitate her. Bill was having a hard time following, but he grasped onto her voice. In this moment it calmed him down. After some long minutes, his breathing had finally stabilized again and was mostly back to normal.

"What was that?" He asked Mary quietly, his voice nearly like a whisper.

"You just had a panick attack. That sometimes happends when you think to much about bad stuff. Your body reacts to your emotions and that follows. It is good that I was able to snap you out of it. You are one step further to thinking like a human. This is a great improvement, Bill!" Mary claimed. Bill wasnt happy with this answer. He didnt want to be more human, act like one or think like one. He stopped himself from thinking furhter due to the shock still being in his body and he didnt want to trigger another panic attack or something. What was wrong with the human body for it to react like this somertimes, Bill asked himself.

His body still hurt but he had to get up and take this stupid shower. He pushed himself up from the ground with his still shaky hands and stepped into the shower. He looked at the heat lever, not knowing what to do. There were to turnable things. He turned the right one until it didnt go anymore, nothing happened. He turned the left one and water started rushing out of the thing above him. The water was ice cold when it hit Bills body. He jumped back out, screaming like a girl and nearly fell over.

"Is everything going well in there?" Ford asked form the outside, chuckling.

"Fuck off!" Bill answered. Ford didnt reply.

Bill had goosenbumps everywhere and brown water dripped down his hair. It was disgusting. Only now had it dawned on Bill why Dipper had given him new clothes. You had to take them off when you showered. He stripped and then investigated the water. If anyone yould have watched him they would say Bills behavior reminded them of a small kitten seeing water for the first time and being absolutely terrified of it. He put his hand under the water. It was getting warmer now. Confidently he stepped in again. This felt nice, he tought. He let it stream over his head and body, his mind quieted down and he had forgotten the panic he has had just moments ago. But then the water got hotter and hotte, steam emerging and filling the bathroom. It soon got to hot again and Bill jumped out again, again followed with a scream and this time he really fell to the floor due to his feet being wet. Luckily he could catch himself on his hands. A sharp pain shot through his right hand.

"You sure everything is fine?" Ford asked again, this time laughing loudly. He could only imagine how miserably Bill was failing in there and it amused him.

"FUCK OFF!" Bill screamed. He was getting frustrated.

He got up and went even more carefully to the shower. To reach the heat lever he had to put his arm in the hot water. He didnt want to do it but it was the only way. He reached out and turned the right lever in the other direction than before. The water immedietly cooled down. Bill got in again. This time the water was a bit too clod to his liking but he promised himself to never touch that thing again. He started doing as Mabel had told him. But first he gave in to his curiosity and tasted a bit of the shampoo. It was disgusting and he spat it out again. Bill really resembled a small kitten.