Friends won't love me like you // Tronnor fanfic

13.

Connor.

Was it even flirting when we call each other 'cute'? Was it even normal for both of us to blush or feel awkward around each other?

"So.. Are you ready, Con?" Troye said to break the awkward silence and staring.
"Yeah yeah my hair gave up on me so that's why I didn't do my quiff.." I smiled shyly and he chuckled.
"You fucking love birds hurry up!!" Tyler said and Troye chuckled and so did I.
"Let's go.." I said and Troye followed me down stairs.
"Finally.. What took you guys so long?!" Tyler asked and I looked at Troye.
"I couldn't do my quiff so I gave up on it.." Troye said and Tyler chuckled.
"Oh boy.. Let's go, bitches!" Tyler said and Troye and I laughed.

-

We arrived to the mall Tyler was taking us and I was really excited to spend some time with Tyler and my.. I mean.. Troye..

"So as I was saying I really don't know what to do for the song I'm currently writing.." Troye said and looked at me.
"Oh.. Well.." I said and Troye cut me off.
"Did you spaced out, Con? Hmm.. Who were you thinking about?" Troye raised an eyebrow and Tyler rolled his eyes.
"I'll go get us Starbucks.. Brb" Tyler said and left.
"I wasn't thinking about anyone.." I said and sat down facing Troye.
"You know you can tell me anything.." Troye looked at me and I got nervous.

The fact that Troye was staring at me deep in the eyes made me feel so nervous and I couldn't stop staring at those pretty eyes he has.

"Troye the thing is.." I said but someone cut me off.
"The coffee is here!" Tyler said and I sighed.
"You can tell me later.." Troye said and gave me a comforting smile.
"Did I interrupt anything?" Tyler asked and gave us our coffee's.
"No no it's okay.." I said and he sat next to me.
"So what's the plan?" Troye said and took a sip of his coffee.
"Just go to a few stores and maybe go on a walk? Connor has been taking me to many walks lately and it's fun!" Tyler said and looked at me.
"Yeah yeah it's fun actually.. Like if you go on the afternoon you can look at the beautiful sunsets and you know.. Instagram worthy.." I laughed and so did Troye.
"You and your Instagram feed.." Tyler rolled his eyes.

Troye.

It was cute to see Connor so passionate about a topic like by just taking pictures of something like his cup of Starbucks or his food or the sunset or just something random.. You could see his eyes sparkle and just him feeling so passionate about that. That's how I feel with music.. Connor feels passionate about photography and I feel passionate about music. Writing music can be complicated sometimes because you can have a writers block or just you can be out of inspiration but, I still love and I feel so passionate about putting my feelings out there in my music.

"What were you saying about a song?" Connor asked me and I remember he zoned out thinking about something or someone.
"Oh.. Yeah.. That I have been working on this song "Gasoline" but I'm a bit stuck.." I said and Connor smiled.
"What part are you stuck on, Troye Boy?" Connor asked and I smiled by hearing the nickname.
"Hold on.." I opened the notes on my iPhone.
"Please bathe me now wash me clean..." I sang and Connor nodded.
"Hm.. Heartbreak song?" He asked and I nodded.
"Yeah.. Sometimes I'm not comfortable enough to share my personal life with the viewers but now with my music I can.." I smiled and Connor smiled too.
"Hmm.. How did you feel about it?" He asked and I looked at him confused.
"About the heartbreak? Well.. I felt like shit.. Honestly I wanted to set my heart on fire like gasoline for the pain to go away.." I said and Connor grinned.
"Please bathe me now.. Wash me clean just set my heart on fire like gasoline!" Connor said and I grinned.
"Yes yes oh my god Con you are the best!" I hugged him tight for a few seconds and Tyler coughed.
"Y'all I'm still here but if ya want I can leave.." Tyler said and smirked at Connor.
"Wait no no Tylah you don't have to.." I said and stopped hugging Connor.
"I have to work on the podcast with Korey anyways.. Hmm.. What if you guys stay here for a bit go for a walk and I'll see you guys at like 8:00pm and take you to a fancy dinner.. Sounds good?" Tyler asked and we nodded.
"Okay well bye Troye and Connor!" Tyler waved goodbye and left.

Sometimes I wonder if the 'working on the podcast with Korey' is now an excuse to leave Connor and I alone.. it's like if he knew something I don't know..

"Now that we are alone.. What was that you wanted to tell me?" I looked at Connor and he looked down and bit his bottom lip.
"Troye.. The thing is.." Connor whispered and started tearing up.
"I can't.. I'm sorry.." Connor said and stood up.
"Con.. Don't.." I grabbed his wrist and he looked at me.
"Can we go somewhere else.. I feel like people can hear and judge me.." Connor said and looked.. scared.
"It's okay, Con.." I smiled and started walking towards the exit.
"Ummm.. Troye you are still holding my wrist.." Connor said and blushed.
"Oh.. Oops sorry.." I said and laughed.

-

There was a park near the mall we were at so we walked there.. It was lonely and that's what Connor wanted some privacy. We sat down behind a tree well.. Connor was laying down looking at the clouds so i decided to lay next to him.. well.. really close to him I could hear him breathing and he scooted closer to me.

"... I'm gay" Connor mumbled and looked at me.