Too worthless to fall in love (Phan)

Chapter 8

It has been 2 days. I jump at an sound of alarm because I feel like it's the police coming to get me. I've been to the library everyday and still more hateful messages come through from josh. But this time. This time it's not just josh. There are about 13 other people. At least 30 messages a day each. I can't take it. The worse part is they're nearly all about Dan. Wait. No. That's the good part cuz that might make him hate me more. Ugh. I care about Dan but he can't care about me. I don't want him to. It won't happen because he will just end up getting hurt. I pack my stuff because I told Amanda I was going to leave today. I bought her some chocolate and flowers to say thank you and left. Where I was going now I don't know. I had to tell Amanda I had been in contact with my mom and she was like picking me up and taking me home otherwise she wouldn't have let me leave. She seemed so thrilled. I tried to act it but I didn't seem to convincing. Convincing enough though. I swung the bag into my back and started walking. I was now back to square one. I walked to a bridge and I sat on the railing. I wasn't one of those people though. I had no intention of jumping. No intention of ending my life. Just a place to sit and think. When you're trying to fend for yourself on the streets hiding from police that might take you back from the place you escaped, there's not many places to sit and think. After those thoughts all I remember was seeing car headlights through the rain and darkness coming towards me then just sudden complete darkness.

Phils mom P.O.V
it's been 4 days since I had the phone call to say Phil was in hospital. He was still unconscious. The past week has been terror. Phil went missing then I get a phone call to say he's been found at the bottom of a bridge most likely victim of the car crash and he has major head wounds from the rocks. At first they thought he wasn't going to make it from the amount of blood loss but he's now in a stable condition. Phil's friend, Dan, has been helping a lot through this. I never met him before but he came to me telling me he had seen him and he made up a lie about his aunty. We don't even have any other family. Since then Dan has been helping with the search and he ha sheen to check on Phil every day in hospital.

We think Phil tried ending his own life. I logged onto his Facebook to check his messages and there was over 17 bullies messaging him all day everyday. That's the reason he ran away. That's the reason he jumped off that bridge. The police and doctors are convinced he didn't jump or try to end his own life but of course he did, why else would he end up there. I just feel terrible. He was being bullied and I wasn't there. I didn't see it. My long shifts he has no chance to ever speak to me so his only option was to try and get away from it all.