Arranged Hearts - GeminiFourth au

Chapter 10

3rd Person's POV

             It's been almost six months to the engagement and today is Fourth's birthday which was never celebrated or remembered before but this year was different as Gemini's mother booked a reservation at a very expensive restaurant, opposite of what Fourth would ever want his birthday to be like. Both boys haven't talked much since the engagement and went back to being awkward just how they used to be, that comfort, friendship, warmth, everything vanished into thin air. They would meet each other on family dinners and would only share glances at the college cafeteria.          Fourth wanted to be Gemini's friend at least but the latter completely shut him out. They both got dressed and were escorted in their bulletproof SUV and bodyguards who then waited outside the VIP dining room of the restaurant Gemini's family booked. They took a seat and ordered what they wanted, they were eating in complete silence when Gemini finally opened his mouth and said;

"Happy Birthday Fourth, I'm sorry my mother dragged you into this dinner, you must wanna celebrate with your family?", he said it with a very straight voice, no emotions attached whatsoever.

"My family? This is my first birthday to ever be celebrated Gemini! I couldn't be more happier, beside my family never even wished me on this day.." 

          Fourth statement caused the older boy's heart to melt as he found himself staring at the birthday boy with nothing but care. He still couldn't figure the reason of Fourth's parents to neglect a human like him.

Fourth's POV

            He's looking at me like he cares, I don't know if he does but that look makes me feel safe, like nothing can ever happen to me, like life was on my side, but is it selfish to think that I want him to always look at me like this? He is growing up so fast, he's seventeen and a half now but he looks like he's older than that, Gemini is very handsome and that's all I'm thinking staring at him..... wait what!!?? ...'avert your eyes fourth..  avert your eyes' i kept saying it until the cake came in.            I looked up to see Gemini lighting the candles and he ...whatttttt....did he just SMILED at me?? It's been half a year that he smiled at me, I missed that smile man!.

Gemini's POV

             I don't know why he's looking at me with a sheepish face, which by the way look ADORABLE, like very adora-..... uhmmm no no no... 'come out of the trance Norawit come out of the trance, act cool!!' I kept repeating it in my head and I came back to reality and told him to make a wish and cut the cake... he looked just like a little kid as the candle light sparkled in his eyes and he made a wish with a toothy grin and blew the candles, it's his first birthday after all.

          I wish he can always have a smile that reaches his eyes, I wish he find all the happiness in his life.... but would he be happy with me?? How am I gonna make him happy, how am I gonna give him what he deserves. I can barely take care of myself how am I gonna make him feel like he's important?? How am i gonna ever love him when i hate myself this much... i can't do this I can't do this!!!

           All of a sudden i felt a warm hand on my hand causing me to come to reality and to look at Fourth who was worried about me, It's like he knows what I'm thinking, making me feel that maybe it's not all bad. Maybe it would be alright. One day...