angst??? (i created this like 2 years ago???? 3??)

feelings

hais i havent used wattpad in years i forgot how to use it. isokay.

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fie stared at her phone, rereading the same paragraph over and over again. was it worth it? fie hated this. she hated when she had to leave someone, especially if it's been more than 1 time.

fie doesn't know why she keeps leaving and coming back, but it was hurting the both of them. almost like a double-edged sword. fie trembled, it was getting hard to breathe. the walls felt as if it was closing in on her and she felt as if the world was going to swallow her whole. fie could feel her bones shaking, she couldn't stand. she took a seat, two of her friends watching her worriedly. they were aware of what was happening.

fie's trembling thumb hovered the 'send' button, hesitating. fie's thumb moved away from the screen as she sighed.

"i can't do it. i love him and i know i must let him go, but i can't. i don't have the heart to." fie told her two friends.

one sighed and took fie's phone, pressing the 'send' button. it sent a wave of panic through fie's body.

"what the hell?!" fie exclaimed, swallowing. her voice was shaking, her hands trembled, and she looked pale.

fie's friend kept her away as they blocked the immature boy fie loved. it was too much for her. the boy fie loved didnt accept fie's offer to help, did not accept her care, and more. it was annoying to her how the boy thought if he ate a bit of fie's food, he has to pay her the amount he ate. fie wanted to leave because this was already much, but she didnt because she loved him. the boy even went as far as to physically stalking fie.

a year before fie met him, the boy would follow fie after school secretly, watching her every move. not only did the boy not accept her help and stalk her, he also refused to care for himself. how can one love if they can't love their own self? fie hated it.

fie knew what had to be done, but she didnt know how to feel about it. to add to the already long list, the boy spoke about fie to his friends. he said he wanted to move on and that he doesnt know how he feels about her. she got to know through his friends. it hurt, but it was reality. harsh reality. he's immature, he doesnt know what he feels. he has mixed feelings, and fie hated it. hearing that he has mixed feelings for her makes fie questioned his actions. if he didnt know how he felt about her, why treat her as if she's his girlfriend? he hasn't even asked her out yet but he still wants to hold hands and hug as if they were.

fie hated when people had mixed feelings about her. it just tells others that they dont know how or what they feel.

fie pleaded with her friends to delete the paragraph as she reached for her phone. how could they?

"it's for the best, fie. please." fie's friend spoke.

"and take a deep breath." fie's friend added.

fie took multiple deep breaths, her eyes drying as she finally calmed down. fie had to accept it, it was a hard pill to swallow but she had to. fie finally broke down, her actions and movements now too weak to use a lot of strength to fight back. fie hugged her friend.

"i hate feelings." fie cried.

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ok thats it ha