Toxic: A Rafe Cameron fanfic ( Rafe x reader)

Chapter 14

Y/n's Pov
Later that night, I was sitting on my bed holding my knee's against my chest. I was trying to do everything but think about what happened today, Nothing worked.

My mind kept wondering off to the things rafe said. He was willing to be disowned by his family to be with me? Did he really love me like that? If he did he wouldn't have talked to Anna still. But maybe he did love me like that.

All of a sudden I hear a tapping at my window, pulling me out of my train of thoughts. I got out of my bed and walked over to my window. I looked out my window only to see rafe standing outside of it. He was smiling at me but not like a happy smile it was like a "please hear me out" smile and a "please give me one more chance" smile. So I opened my window to see what he wants.

"What do you want?" I ask him as I peer out my window. I really don't want to see Rafe but for some reason seeing him makes me feel better.

"Let me talk to you. Please Y/n. I can't lose you. I already broke it off with Anna." Rafe says as he looks up to me with pleading eyes. I don't want to give in. I want to just tell him to go away and never come back, that I can't be hurt again. Another part of me wants to jump out the window and engulf him in a hug. But I can't I need to tell him I can't do this anymore.

"Come to the front door"

Welp, I gave in

Rafe gave me a smile as he started walking to the front door. I quickly Rand out of my room and down the stairs, almost smashing face first into the door.

"Come in" I said as I opened the door for Rafe. He gave me a nod as he walked in. I shut the door behind him as he made his way into the living room. I sat down on the couch as Rafe sat on one of the arm chairs.

"Listen Y/n, I -" Rafe began before I cut him off.

"I can't go through you hurting me again Rafe. I've dealt with it for way too long. One minute you love me the next your up against another girl. I just can't do it. So if you here to feed me another bullshit apology just leave" I say looking at him. It's best if I got that out of me now instead of not getting it out at all.

"I don't want to hurt you anymore. I broke it off with Anna, I told my dad he could shove it ups his ass because I'll never stop loving you, and I've decided I'm going to quit doing coke. It's done nothing but brought me in trouble and me fighting with you and I don't want it anymore. I want to be good for you. I want to be there for you." He says. He looks like he's about to cry, like he means every word he meant. He's at his breaking point.

Seeing him like this did nothing but bring me to tears.

"How do I know you telling the truth. How do I know you won't tell me these bullshit lies the go find some other girl behind my back again? Listen I love you Rafe but I can't" I say looking down at my lap, playing with my hands.

"Because I love you Y/n. I've never stopped. I know all the things I've done to you were terrible and I don't deserve a second chance but please give me one. I can't lose you" Rafe said as he shot up from his seat and walking over to me. I stood up too so that we were eye to eye.

"Rafe please calm down" I say. I want to forgive him, I do forgive him. But it's just so hard to think he won't do what he's done before.

"No. Forgive me Y/n. I miss you, I love you. I fucked up. I know. I own up to it. I should've just stood up to my dad instead of getting with Anna and hiding it from you. I should've expressed my feelings to you. I should've told you what was going on and how I felt. I shouldn't have confined in a drug to solve my problems. And I'm changing now. I'm changing for you. I'm done with coke, I'm done with being scared of my father and doing everything he says, I'm done being shitty. I want us to have a fresh start." Rafe said as he grabbed my hand. He looked at me with tear filled eyes. "Please" his voice cracked while sobbing

It broke my heart to see him like this. I hate to see in such pain, such heartbreak. So I did what I should've done to begin with. I quickly connected his lips with mine. He softened as he kissed back. As we pulled away I engolfed him in a hug.

"I forgive you" I said as I tightened my grip around him. "I love you Rafe" I say as I pulled away from Rafe.

"I love you too, Y/n" He says as he hugs me again

"Always and forever"