Love Full of secrets II (part 2)//ft. Pedri Gonzalez

Chapter 12 ~ my world is falling apart

He suddenly pulls out a gun, I am speechless. My throat is closed and I start to shake. ''Please, don't do this.'' But it is already too late, the last thing I hear is a gunshot and then everything went black...

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POV Pedri:

We are on our way home, there is a whole party in the car. We won 7-0 today, which of course needs to be celebrated. The music is playing fucking loud, Gavi is also tearing across the road. We are slowly getting close to our house, the street is coming into view. But the closer we get, the brighter a blue red light shines against our eyes. 3 vehicles come into view, 2 police cars and 1 ambulance. We drive a bit closer and suddenly it hits me, they are in front of our house.. My house.. Gavi seems to notice it too and immediately stops the car. I get out and run to my house, but I am stopped by a police officer. ''Sir, you can't get through here.'' ''But, my wife and children are inside! I want to know what happened.'' I see the officer's face soften, ''I'm very sorry sir, but your wife has passed away.'' Am I hearing that right? I am speechless, it feels like I've been slapped in the face. ''This is not true, you are joking.. Where are my children?'' '''I am very sorry for your loss, but I am not joking. Your children are with your in-laws.'' The words haunt my mind, your wife has passed away.. I refuse to believe it. The officer lets me through, all kinds of people are searching the garden and the house. A white cloth is covered over the body, which is lying on the pavement.. I stare at it, it feels like my world is collapsing. She is really gone.. I look up and see my children, Antonela and Messi with tears in their eyes.

I walk towards them, Lyci is the first one who sees me and runs towards me crying. ''Papa.'' Léon runs after her and I take them both in my arms. I hug them tightly and I feel my shirt starting to get wet. I gently rub their backs, ''everything will be fine, calm down. I will always be here, I will never leave you.'' What will they do without their mother? Tears slowly start to roll down my face, my wife, the love of my life, the mother of my children is gone.. Forever.. I look up and see Antonela and Messi looking at me with tears in their eyes. I let go of the kids and give them a kiss on the head, suddenly someone taps my shoulder. I turn around and see Auri with a sad face. ''Come here brother.'' she opens her arms and I hug her, the tears start to well up in me again and not much later tears are running down my face again. ''Let it all out, I'm here for you. I understand that it's going to be difficult for you now, if you want I can look after the kids for you for a while.'' I pull myself out of the hug and look at her gratefully, ''thank you hermana.'' She nods and gives her attention to the kids, ''do you want to come with me and uncle Gavi?'' They nod, I give them a last hug and let them go with Auri. ''Take care of yourself.''

I turn around where Yana's parents are standing, I walk towards them and greet them. ''I'm so sorry for your loss, son.'' ''No, I'm sorry for your loss. She's your daughter..'' ''Thank you, but she was your wife and the mother of your children. It's also hard for you, remember that we will always be here for you, you are part of the family son.'' I look at them gratefully, Antonela looks at me with red eyes and then says. ''If you need a babysitter, or need some time for yourself. We will love to look after them.'' ''Thank you, I really appreciate it.'' ''Oh and by the way, the dogs are in our car, you can take them out.'' I nod and say goodbye to them. I walk towards their car, I see Jagger's head already appearing in front of the window. I open the door and see Nilo hiding behind Jagger, they both look at me sadly. ''I know, unfortunately we can't change anything.''

I look at the scene in front of me, a ribbon has been placed around the house so that no one can get in and so that they can investigate the scene. The bright red blue light of the police and ambulance is still on. Further on I see a police officer questioning the neighbors, they were the ones who called the police. Suddenly I feel a hand on my shoulder, I turn around, it's Frenkie, ''hey man, I'm so sorry for your loss.'' And he pulls me into a hug. ''Thanks, Jagger is in the car.'' He nods and I look at the person behind him, Mikky is standing there with tears in her eyes and her hand over her mouth. She looks at the house in disbelief, but her eyes are now focused on me. I walk over to her and hug her, she immediately bursts into tears. ''I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, this is all my fault. I shouldn't have let her watch Jagger, this is all my fault. Because of me she had to go outside in the evening to let him out, it's my fault..'' ''Hey calm down, Mik. It's not your fault, it could happen at any time. You couldn't do anything, you didn't know this was going to happen. Mik please, don't blame yourself.'' ''No this is all my fa-.'' She wanted to finish her sentence, but she's interrupted by Frenkie, ''Mik come on we're going home. It's not your fault and Pedri, call us if you need anything.'' I nod and look at them gratefully. What am I supposed to do with my life now..