The engine and the sound of the gushing wind from outside the car, was the only thing making the car not silent. I want to say something. But I don't know what. It could be anything. But nothing came to mind.
Was he aware of what he was doing? What he was asking for? Maybe it was all a prank, and my friends would be at my house to yell 'prank!' once I entered, like a clueless idiot. Maybe that was the case.
How had I believed he was being sincere? How naïve and stupid could one be? But could you really blame me...?
When Kenan Yilzid offered you a night of pleasure you couldn't decline.
He was offering this... soft and vulnerable side of himself, something I wasn't used too. Something I would love to see more of. Something I would never see again after the time hit past midnight.
Kenan doesn't say a word. I don't say a word. But the silence says a lot. I can't take it anymore. I finally break the silence.
"Why are you doing this Kenan...?"
I say as I turn my head to look at him, but I could have talked to a wall, and I would've gotten a bigger reaction. He doesn't turn his head or even make a sound of acknowledgement. The rest of the car ride I just stay silent.
The tension in the car is awkward. Not what I would have preferred but oh well. I finally spot my house. He pulls up into my driveway like he's mastered the action. Just another day of hanging out with my girlfriend.
Only problem. I wasn't his girlfriend, no matter how bad I wanted to be.
The cars headlights shut off as he turns the car off and unbuckles his seatbelt. But he doesn't step out. He lets out a long breath before turning his head towards me.
I don't look at him, instead I keeping my gaze locked on the front door of my house. I can't see him, but I can feel him, feel him staring at me with those eyes.
He leans over resting his forearm on the armrest. His heavy breathing tickles my ear and suddenly my seatbelt feels extra tight.
I gulp down a ball of spit as we both stay frozen I place. My skins already burning even though he hasn't even touched me yet. That's the effect he has on me. Even his eyes can burn me.
"Look at me Bella..."
He says softly, his voice barely audible. I wait a few seconds before I slowly turn my head. Once I do our faces are so close our noses are touching.
My breath catches in my throat in with anticipation.
Kenan hungrily kisses me with an inhumane sound. My shoulders tense at the kiss but not in a bad way. I can feel him everywhere. I need him everywhere.
"Kenan. Let's go inside-"
I say breathlessly into the kiss but he quickly shuts me up by kissing me aggressively. He bits my bottom lip seeking entrance, but I pull away so I can catch my breath.
The lighting is dark. His eyes are dark with desire and lust. The setting is so intimate yet daring. If I enter that house with Kenan what will happen? Besides the obvious: sex.
Even though I have an idea of it not ending well for me I still wanna find out. I wanna try my chances with him. Either until i have no left chance left or he's in my arms like he should be.
"Let's go inside."
I whisper. He gives me a quick peck before he replies with a smirk.
"I've always wanted to try car sex..."
He says in a seductive but playful tone. I let out a slight giggle and lightly hit his shoulder.
"Don't be ridiculous Kenan. I prefer a bed.. maybe even a counter. Just not the car."
I say with a little smile plastered on my lips. I give him a peck and turn to open the car door. I close it behind me and walk up to my apartment complex. I open the door and step inside to the familiar smell of the apartment complex. I press the button of the elevator and wait. Even though he hasn't said anything i know he's right behind me. I can feel him.
Suddenly I feel his arms wrap around my waist from behind and he rests his head on my shoulder. I get this forbidden urge to tell him I love him, but I can't. He inhales my scent and for a second I forget all about our complications. I feel every worry disappear as he murmurs something into my neck.
"What was that?"
I say as I turn my head so my lips are touching his temple.
"Nothing."
The sound of the elevator opening brings me back to the present. I take a step forward towards the elevator and to my surprise he doesn't let go. Thanks to it being pretty late no one was in the elevator. We both step inside the elevator and he presses the '5' button. He remembers. Of course he does Bella. He's not stupid after all.
His arms stay wrapped around my waist and his head continues resting on my shoulder. I relax slightly into his hold, my back pressing against his chest.
The elevator comes to a stop. I unlock my apartment door. We both step in. I lock the door as he enters. Before I even get to turn around Kenan does it for me. He pins me against the door, pushing my hips into the metal door.
He immediately attacks my neck, leaving aggressive kisses and bites. I lean my head to the side giving him more access. He lifts my legs telling me to wrap them around his waist. I jump and wrap my legs around him and he catches me by my ass.
I'm the one whose now kissing and biting his neck as he guides us both to my bedroom. We're both going to be covered in hickey by tomorrow, but I don't care. At least girls will know he's taken... he is taken he's just not aware.
"Bella."
Kenan moans out as he slowly sets me down onto the bed. I pull him down with me. I want to be as close as possible as much as possible. I lay on the bed gazing up at him as he hovers over me. He helps me take my shirt off his fingers grazing my skin. Our lips connect again this time in a slow sensual kiss.
His hands go behind my back unclasping my bra, earning a little gasp from me. He pulls away from the kiss and watches himself as he removes my bra from my chest tantalizingly slow. He tosses my bra somewhere in the room.
"Lay down Bella... let me take care of you..."
He whispers against my temple as he lowers my back onto the bed carefully. I look down at him as he starts unzipping my jeans. He keeps his eyes on me as he does.
"You look beautiful Bella..."
He whispers as he slides my jeans down my legs and throwing them on the floor. I feel exposed, extremely exposed only wearing my underwear. My chest falling and rising nervously even though we've done this multiple times. But this feels different, and I know Kenan feels it too.
It feels like a promise for more. When I think about the reason we broke up... yeah it was absolutely ridiculous, but I had to happen at some point. We both felt like a ticking bomb waiting to explode.
He takes his shirt off with one clean movement and leans over me supporting his weigh on his elbow. He gently takes my hand and places it on his heart. His touch, his words, his actions. It's too much. It's too sweet for me to handle.
Why is he doing this to me?
Why is he confusing me like this?
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Authors note: I think I said she lived in an apartment then a house... then an apartment again but like she lives in an apartment I don't really know what's going on with me. I'm a little lost.
I hope the switch between her feelings/thoughts to what's happening isn't too difficult to understand.
If anyone has any ideas of what can/could happen after they've banged please let me know. Kinda running out of ideas.
Words count: 1430
Published: 20/9-2024
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Kenan Yildiz - Ex
FanfictionKenan and Bella recently broke up but, you they still love each other but don't wanna admit to it. Or more correctly: don't see it. What the two had was toxic, constantly trying to make each other jealous, being possessive and controlling etc. Can...
