Found (bxb)

Chapter 2

*Mentions of self harm in the last paragraph* 

Jack

I woke up to the sound of knocking on my bedroom door, "Jack, you up?" James yelled, from outside the door. "Yeah" I grumbled, still half asleep. I got up slowly and realized that Lilly was fast asleep beside me, we must have fallen asleep watching the movie. "Lilly we have to get up" I said while shaking her shoulder. "I'm up, I'm up" she said, rubbing her eyes. I walked into the bathroom and took a cold shower to try and wake up a bit. When I was finished Lilly was up and getting dressed, "Is that my hoodie?" I asked starting at the grey hoodie she had on. "Yeah, i'm just gonna borrow it for a while" she said smiling at me. I rolled my eyes, knowing that I would probably never see that hoodie again. 

I quickly got dressed putting on white t shirt and a blue hoodie over it and a pair of grey sweatpants. Lilly and I walked downstairs to get some food before we leave, we walked into the kitchen and I was surprised to see my brother and about 4 of his friends and his girlfriend Evelyn sitting there eating pancakes I scanned the room and my eyes landed on Miles, I quickly averted my gaze. "Good morning" James said smiling at us. "Did you have fun last night?" he asked with a hint of amusement in his voice. I rolled my eyes "Shut up, we just watched some movies" I grumbled while I was walking towards the fruit bowl to grab an apple. 

Our parents were almost never home, my dad owned a very successful buisness so most of the time he was away on trips and my mom almost always went with him, leaving me and James home alone. I had stopped caring years ago, I knew it still bothered James somethimes. 

"You two ready to go?" James asked me and Lilly. We nodded and followed them outside I was relieved to find out that James' friends were going in a separate car, I really didn't want to sit in a car with them for fifteen minutes. Me and Lilly sat in the back while Evelyn sat in the passenger seat. I was dreading going to school, mostly because I didn't have any of my homework done and would most likely get detention. I also was not in the mood to deal with all the homophophic assholes there. 

Me and Lilly walked to our lockers taking about anything and everything. My first class was Biology, I know horrible, right? the bell rang just as I was closing my locker, "I'll see you at lunch?" Lilly asked as she was walking away. I nodded and made my way to Biology, I sat at the back of the class and put my head down on desk and tried to fall asleep. Most teachers have given up on trying to get me to pay attention. Despite me always sleeping and never paying attention, I somehow mostly get A's and B's. 

I slept through the next three periods until lunch where I went to the cafeteria to meet Lilly and some of our other friends, I know shocking that I amn't a total outcast. I walked over to our table and sat down inbetween Lilly and Noah, they were talking about the football game on friday that I would not be attending. My eyes scanned the cafeteria and they landed on Miles he had his arm around some cheerleader. I felt a pang of jealousy. No. Why would I be jealous? I don't even know him. 

The rest of the day went by in a blur, I met Lilly at my locker at the end of the day. She told me all about this cute girl in her English class. I tried my best to pay attention to what she was saying but I kept zoing out, I was exhausted and just wanted to get home to bed. "Oh hey Miles" Lilly said, now got my attention. my head whipped up and I saw Miles Lewis standing infront of me. he smiled at us and said, "James told me to tell you that if you want a Lyft home, he's leaving in the next five minutes". "Uh thanks" I said quietly. He walked off in the direction of James' car and me and Lilly followed. I noticed Lilly was looking at me weirdly. "What? Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked, confused. "I think someone has a crush" she said in a sing-songy voice. I forrowed my brow, "No I don't". She raised her eyebrows and chuckled before getting into the car. 

When we got home, Lilly stayed for a few hours and we watched a few movies. At 7 she said she had to leave and she would see me tomorrow morning. After she left I lay in bed and stared at the ceiling feeling so drained and having no energy. I slowly got up and walked over to my mirror I stared at myself wondering why I couldn't be normal. I was interrupted by a knock on my door, James stuck his head, "Hey we're getting pizzas, do you want some?"he asked. I shook my head. He frowed "Are you okay?". "Yeah, just tired" He nodded and left. 

I got up and walked into the bathroom, I opened the cabinet and pulled out a small box and stared at it for a moment. I promised everyone that I wouldn't do it again. I thought I was getting better but maybe I will never get better, that I'll be like this forever. I opened the box and took out the small blade. I stared at it in my hand for a while, I knew deep down that I shouldn't do this, that I had been doing so well but I couldn't take it anymore. I needed to do something to make this feeling stop. 

A/N

Sorry this chapter is kinda short I promise that the chapters will get longer!

I hope you enjoyed this chapter

-Loz