𝐅𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐈𝐍 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄. Blue Lock

A. Ness 【1/1】

Ness's pov
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I couldn't sit there and not think about her. Not think about how it should be me when Kaiser complimented her. What did she have that I didn't? I know it's stupid; I know I'm lying to myself because I think about her like she's on some sort of pedestal. She's amazing, truly.

She's amazing when Shidou makes jokes about her that I don't know if I'd be able to stand. She's amazing when she takes the bullshit some of these people give her. I don't care if she's unbothered by it; I am. How could I not worry about a girl like her? I know exactly why Kaiser obsesses over her. I know exactly that Kaiser could never like her the same way I do.

Nobody could ever like her the same way I do. I know I've been a bitch to her, and she's amazing for taking my bullshit too. She's amazing for ignoring the craving I have for her. She's undeniably beautiful. It's not just a crush, I swear it's not. It can't be. It can't be the same way I look at her like she owns the world.

Heavens, she owns mine. I wish I could control my feelings. I wish I could control my thoughts.  "Noa.." I'm scared of him, kind of. He looks for reason in the arts. Football is an art; it's a creation from when one's thoughts are shived into a ball. That's what football is. Not the science my parents believe, nor the science my coach believes.

In that sense, he's too much like them. I don't know if he even likes my appearance on this team. "Yes?" He looks at me, scrutinises me with such attentiveness that I get nervous. "Can I take today off?" He just looks at me. Looks so carefully as if trying to read through me. "Why?" It was a good question. Why did I so desperately want to see her right now? Why? I don't know.

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"To see her." Hell, he doesn't know who her is. He doesn't necessarily care where he went. Ness himself was a pawn to aid his best striker – Kaiser. And now he's been inherently discarded by the heated rivalry between Kaiser and Isagi. Each time he sees those boys, his life force drains out on him. He came to watch football, not some twisted version driven purely by perversion.

It was strange. "Okay, go." Ness's breath restabilises as he walks off. He knows that he shouldn't just barge in. He can't just go to her house unannounced, but he will. He can't even stop to think about any variables as to why he shouldn't go. He didn't think until he was nervously by her door. His whole body shaking as he mentally fell apart  in consequence to his reckless decision.

A decision he would live to thank himself for. His hands shivering as he knocks on your door, his lips shaking as you stare wide-eyed at him. "Hey," he says. That's all he lets out his mouth. You nervously pull him in. "What the fuck, Ness?" Ness. He hates that he's the only one you don't address familiarly. He hates that he's probably made you hate him.

Well, if only he had a clue to the ways you felt about him. "I don't know. Fuck, this was stupid." His face is filled with regret that breaks you. "No, stay. Fuck, Alexis, please stay." You'd been thinking about him. You really can't stop wondering if it's okay to feel so attached to someone who doesn't like you. At least you thought he didn't, but everything changed that night.

The way you felt, the way he felt, the way you'd melt. He really likes you a lot. "I don't like you. I really hate you, Y/n. I want to say that; I really do. I don't know how it started but I'm fixated on you constantly. At first it was jealousy, then hate, then envy, then confusion, then fuck, love. I think it's love?" You didn't know how to react.

You didn't move. Did you love him? Did you love him despite he shit he's pulled? Yeah, you did, and you still do. You always will, and nothing can change it. Nothing can change that comforting feeling when you pull him closer into your arms. Nothing cab change the feeling of his perfectly soft hands on your waist. You can feel every intricate line. It's the only thing you can focus.

Only thing before his lips crashed into yours. The sensation terrifyingly natural to you. He didn't let go if not to breathe; you didn't think if not of him. "So, erm, Y/n? Please, will you be mine?" Heavens, that perfectly craved face drives into your soul. Those unexplored eyes of his hypnotise you.

"Yeah, of course I will, Alexis. Of course, I will."

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