Perfect Suicide

Ch. 15 - The cost of Love

This must be what bliss feels like.

I had never felt anything like this. The peace flowing through me appeared to be mixing with the satisfaction I felt because of last night.

Zhollo took my virginity.

I curled my legs up to my chest and smiled a little smile.

No, I gave it to him.

I gave Zhollo my virginity, and I was happy about it.

He honestly meant so much to me now. I had a lot of care in my heart that built for Zhollo over the last few weeks, but now? I knew that feeling was turning to love.

I knew it and I wanted it to happen; I wanted to fall in love with him.

"Zhollo, you up?" I yawned and stretched as I looked behind me, seeing nothing but an empty space.

Huh... I wonder where he is.

Swinging my legs over the edge of the bed, I pushed myself off and made my way to the living room.

"Zhollo?" I called, only hearing my voice echo back as a response.

Confusion was starting to set in.

Where could he have gone? It wasn't like there was much to do here, and Zhollo didn't even know anyone here.

As I stood in the center of my living room, I looked around one more time. A part of me hoped he would've left a note or something, but I knew he wasn't the type to do that.

I walked towards the kitchen and opened the fridge to grab some water. When I opened it and saw nothing, that was when I realized I had yet to fill it with any sort of groceries.

He probably went to grab something to drink or a snack, I thought to myself.

Turning back towards the bedroom, I started to walk in that direction, but a knock at my door stopped me in my tracks.

Who could that be? Jahni? Jeo? What would I even say if it was Jeo?

I didn't know what was moving faster, my heartbeat or the thoughts in my head. With my anxiety tucked into my back pocket, I opened the door to see Jahni.

"Oh, hey Jahni! What's up?" I felt my heartbeat start to slow down.

"Hey..." She said, looking down at her feet. "The Council needs to see you."

"Oh okay. Let me grab my shoes." I started to turn away. "Wait, did you by chance see anyone walking from this way?"

"Like who?" She cocked her head and looked at me before fixing her gaze back to the floor.

"Like Zh-," I interrupted myself. "Never mind. I'll be right back."

"Actually, just catch me later, okay? I have to, uh, I have to go do something really quick." Jahni turned and walked away before I could say anything.

That was weird.

Slipping my shoes on, I made my way down to the main floor. I tried and failed to shake off the uneasy feeling Jahni had left me with.

Fuck... The Council!

I had forgotten all about meeting with the Council. Maybe that's where Zhollo went?

I started to chew on my bottom lip.

I didn't feel as though he would go to the meeting without me; why would he? We both had to give our decision; we wanted to spend the rest of eternity together. I mean, we just had sex last night!