𝘥𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘴.

𝘴𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦.

𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘶𝘵 - 𝘫𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘩𝘺𝘶𝘯 (𝘚𝘏𝘐𝘕𝘦𝘦)

"inversatile and incompetent" that's what i heard for most of my life, a sign of a tear? a sign of stupidity.  i had always wanted to leave the house and leave my past behind, but someone stopped me everytime, owen. he knew my potential just how i knew his but i didn't have the potential he had. i never did and never will, i kinda gave up on life trying to free myself from my past its something not even the angels above could do and now that i forced him to forget about me it;s a constant reminder that i will never be as good as anyone in that college regardless of my academic grade. my body was a constant reminder of it the bruises, the scars, the scars i created myself it all felt sublime when i thought about owen and what he would go through maybe because i got used to self- sabotaging myself but it had seeped so deep into my veins, no levels of strong injections could get dilute it.

trying to maintain her focus i tried to walk quickly away from her  in an attempt to escape the hellish thoughts that kept invading my body like a serpent, but just seeing her face it had done it all. i felt numb, my body was getting more and more brittle and fragile even a feather could break my body into half but what can i do? go home? never. owen might resent me forever but this is the only way he can survive, without me.

when she reached a certain point her body couldn't manage the lack of energy and the lack of food and lack of sleep and lack of oxygen all at once so it full shut down, but trying to continue but her lungs couldn't cooperate almost creating another set of panic attacks because her it escalated so, fast her body couldn't keep up.

II "are you good?" someone spoke up 

"not another one ive seen 2 people i didn't want to see today please leave me be ill get up eventually just leave, oh and thanks for the concern i guess." she spoke, frustrated

"no its bec-" the stranger got cut off

"please i beg you leave." she yelled

he walked off mumbling the last words she heard for a while 

"take care of yourself before you take care of others, because your the one who needs saving first." he mumbled before walking away

d̶o̶ ̶p̶e̶o̶p̶l̶e̶ ̶r̶e̶a̶l̶l̶y̶ ̶n̶o̶t̶ ̶l̶i̶s̶t̶e̶n̶?̶  she thought

i̶ ̶d̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶e̶v̶e̶n̶ ̶k̶n̶o̶w̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶s̶ ̶p̶e̶r̶s̶o̶n̶ ̶w̶h̶y̶ ̶w̶o̶u̶l̶d̶ ̶i̶ ̶l̶i̶s̶t̶e̶n̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶s̶o̶m̶e̶ ̶r̶a̶n̶d̶o̶m̶ ̶s̶t̶r̶a̶n̶g̶e̶r̶?̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶y̶ ̶k̶n̶o̶w̶ ̶n̶o̶t̶h̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶a̶b̶o̶u̶t̶ ̶m̶e̶?̶  she kept thinking

                                                                                 救我

after a few hours she regained consciousness, she realised she had slept on the floor, on the streets. i should of just went to a nearby café shop. 

looking at her phone, which is almost half dead, realising that she has school, school which is almost an hour way and school starts in 40 minutes. maybe if i run for it? nah. why do i try to achieve so much when i end up where i started? with the money she has left she just went on some random share taxi because didn't get much of a choice 

escaping the taxi felt like a fever dream the notorious smell, the indecent men, the ugly walls corroding off of each other, it was almost like the textbook, i ran because if i was late i'm ruining my perfect attendance record and in no way am i torturing that, for now.

"miss im sorry im late." she spoke out of breath

"late? your like an hour early." she said with confusion

"early? miss its-" staring at her phone with perplexion visible

"7:40? but i swear when i left it was 7:40?" she said with strong confusion

"did you sleep properly?" she asked with true concern

y̶e̶s̶,̶ ̶i̶ ̶s̶u̶r̶e̶ ̶d̶i̶d̶ ̶s̶l̶e̶e̶p̶.̶

"it's fine coming early isn't a crime, coming late is. since your early maybe study for the finals its in a few weeks and since you were gone for a few days i can send you some of the lessons you missed and catch up on that." she said with a smile on her face

"mhm please send me the lessons it will really help." she said walking back to her seat

after an hour ended, it really felt like a decade, everyone came flocking in like a bunch of pecking birds

"im shocked shes here, wasn't the brother comment enough for her to be gone for like a month?" the students chuckled

"i think she thinks shes the it girl or some shit coming back even when what ivo did was a sign not to come back." students whispered

"maybe they should of done it to lee know to how the fuck is he here?" the students said in shock

w̶h̶o̶s̶ ̶l̶e̶e̶k̶n̶o̶w̶?̶

as soon as i get up to see who this "lee know" guy is immediately i get felt up by someone but its not ivo.