𝘥𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘴.

𝘤𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘶𝘱𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯.

when the rain stops - eaJ                                                                                                                                              (⋆)

i felt free, for the first time in my life i felt like i escaped, i felt like i was on cloud nine and no one was hear to tell me it was a dream the poisoned trapped blood that was begging to escape my body had finally been free i had felt like i had just escaped hell and no one was here to drag me back, how?

II "Minho what are you doing?" she yelled out

she sounds like minsi?

"minsi?!, am i dead finally?" he yelled out

"no, this is your vivid dream ive been praying for a day like this, i needed this to happen to you so i can finally talk some sense into you." she spoke calmly

"you have been acting like a lun-" she got cut off

someone did drag me back to hell and who would of thought it  was minsi, my minsi.

"so you saw how much i suffered without you and the only chance you get to kind of talk to me is when you have to point out the stupid shit ive been doing since you were gone huh?" he spat out

"you know how much i wanted to come with you and join you but what did you always tell me oh never to kill myself and even if you left to try and find true happiness and i abided by it but now all the sudden you come back and you tell me im being a lunatic, minsi you tell me tell me any other way to cope with my best friend leaving  me with a drunk mother and abusive classmates genuinely what would you do minsi if you were me?, tell me that there was another way other than self harming and trying to kill myself TELL ME PLEASE, I BEG YOU." he started crying

"i tried. i tried to move on and try to find happiness, left my home country just to start a new life to find that america isn't any better, you probably saw right? i wanted to stop being so moppy when other peoples lives are 10x worse and i shouldn't just try to drown myself is self-pity but you were my only friend, sister and soulmate i had on this earth yet you leave me to deal with this horrible indecent world alone, you always said me and you against the world, well now its just me against this world." he said visibly uncomfortable

minsi sat there and watched him in silence not knowing what to do because everything he said was true, she would do the same.

she slowly wrapped her arms around him knowing she can't ever do this again until his death

"lets meet again in another life." she said quietly

she slowly took out the blades in his hands clenched together allowing more blood to flow out slowly placing his on the ground, lying walking away

                                                                          腐败问题。

slowly as he woke up he felt the surge of pain escape his arms and hands and the limit of energy caught up to him he felt lifeless, probably because he had just returned to his hell. the person who he thought he could trust the most put him back here.

entering his classroom, oh that was the true hell.

"oh guys look the pussy is back." the boys started to yell out

w̶h̶y̶ ̶d̶i̶d̶ ̶i̶ ̶c̶o̶m̶e̶ ̶b̶a̶c̶k̶?̶

"ivo look your mans is here, he kept going on on how much of a good fuck you were i mean your facial features says it all on why." he says snickering 

w̶e̶r̶e̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶y̶ ̶c̶a̶l̶l̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶m̶e̶ ̶s̶k̶i̶n̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶b̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶2̶ ̶F̶U̶C̶K̶I̶N̶G̶ ̶D̶A̶Y̶S̶ ̶A̶G̶O̶?̶!̶

"I hope you kill yourself." the elder says in a non - chalant  fashion and walks away assuming he hopefully ended the conversation but in this college thats not how it works.

"hey, hey, hey, where the fuck do you think your going our little conversation isn't over until i say it is, okay." he says smiling caressing the elders cheek and thigh

"where is augusta." he says with a blank expression but voice full of annoyance

"i thought you would ask, shes here but you don't need to worry about her, im here minho." he says sheepishly 

"how the hell do you know my name and who gave you fucking authority to be touching my legs and caressing my cheek and calling me by a name i don't go by here because it certainly wasn't me." he says raising his tone more and more

"you know im trying to be nice, considering your not like augusta who's fuck ivo didn't enjoy at all, trying to treat you at least like a nice bedsheet and not a fucking trash can like augusta but if you don't take my commodity ill gladly treat you like the trash can that i believe you are in my heart regardless what ivo thinks, got it?" he says with a more serious tone 

"i don't need even a ounce of respect from you because it doesn't affect me in anyway because to me your in a landfill waiting to get destroyed." he says with annoyance 

as he walks off he feels the latter's hand overtake his arm as he turns the elder around shock overtook his organs as disquietude intimidated his body one last time.