The Art Of Letting Go (The Journal)

Writing: 4

"Blinded"

I was in an eight year relationship. Eight as infinity, we were already planning to get married and plan everything about the future.

We were both ready. Trying to prove that long distance works. Until, one day. Someone came. I got confused. Suddenly I wasnt sure. Suddenly I have second thoughts. Suddenly I have doubts.

A guy came and made me feel like the happiest girl in the world. I was so happy and was ready to leave everything behind. Everyone around me noticed the difference. They kept on saying I'm in love.

I know I am feeling something different. I know there's a new feeling. I know a love is starting to bloom. I am scared because I already knew what's gonna be my decision.

I was so scared that I didnt know what to do. I tried to stop it but it was killing me and I know I will regret it someday.

And so, I did it.

I ended my relationship and started dating the guy that made me feel special.

We went several dates. I gave everything to him. It was so fast but I wanted it. I liked it. I loved it.

We have been away from each other for a month. I felt love but as the time goes by, the coldness started to visit my days and nights.

It was so cold that made my heart felt blue. I cried myself to sleep. I was vulnerable. Everyone noticed my smile fading.

We met again, talked and tried to fix things. It was a week of happiness again. But scary things keep on knocking and entering my mind.

I was ready to fight and face the enemies, but he was not. I couldn't go alone and fight. So, we decided to drift apart.

He decided to took a different path, and I let him with a soft pat.
It was not easy, it was painful
What can I do? I have to let him go so he can grow.

I think, this is one of the most selfless thing that I have ever done in my life,
I let go of the person I mostly love so he can find his own life.