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16 ~ Eat It Up

WARNING: THIS STORY TALKS ABOUT SUICIDE, DRUG USE, AND OTHER THEMES/ TOPICS THAT MAY TRIGGER OR BE SENSITIVE TO SOME READERS. IF YOU DON'T FEEL COMFORTABLE READING THIS, I ADVISE YOU TO STOP READING. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

[This is a longer chapter, so enjoy :) ]

Life has always been so funny and hilariously inconsistent. Meaning, there will be great times and bad times, but sometimes it can be more bad than good or more good than bad. It's never an even amount of both good and bad. The short time of joy we had at the cabin in Lake Topaz was great. But once we left Lake Topaz, we had come back to reality. Reality truly set in for us when we came back to school after suspension.

The day we returned to school, I had a stomach ache. It wasn't that I ate anything bad, it's just I felt extremely anxious and the thought of having to relive the trauma of being the social pariah once again made me feel that way. I sat in my car after I parked it in the school parking lot and I just tried to breathe and calm down. Which was easier said than done. I was so in my own head that when Nick knocked on my drivers side window, it spooked me.

"Jesus..." I said as I put my hand over my heart which was racing. I reached over to my keys so I could put it in the ignition to turn on the car and lower my window.

"I texted you and you didn't respond." He told me.

"Oh fuck, I-I'm sorry. I spaced out." I told him honestly.

"Can I come in the car?" He asked me.

"Uh yeah, let me just unlock the passengers side." I said as I pressed down the unlock button on my drivers side door. As soon as he heard the clicking of the doors unlocking, he went to the passengers side door and opened it so he could sit down. When he closed the door I put the windows back up for a little bit of privacy.

"What's wrong?" He asked me point blank. I took a deep breath in.

"It's going to happen again, I'm going to be scrutinized but this time it's for something I didn't even do." He grabbed my hand and reassured me,

"It'll be okay, you're not alone in this. This time I'll be there with you through it all." He kissed my hand gently like a gentleman.

"I'm here, and I'm not going anywhere." He continued to reassure me. He was right, I wasn't going to be alone that time. I hadn't thought of it that way, at that point I had just thought about me. And I had to think of me first for a bit. But that wasn't the case anymore, I had Wayne, Rose and Xoey.

"Okay?" He asked me.

"Okay." I nodded and replied softly.

"Let's go then." He smiled at me. He was truly a gem, and I had thought to myself what I did to deserve this. We both walked from my car hand in hand, through the hallway, where people had their phones out recording us walking down the hall to my locker. I felt my hands get sweaty and my breathing got heavier. It was worse than before, this time around people were recording us and posting it on Tik Tok in order to publicly shame us. Wayne held my hand tighter and he kept his head held up high. I didn't know how he managed to do that, and with such ease. I couldn't even keep my head high, I out my head down low and put my hand over my face, as a last ditch effort to hide myself. I failed of course.

Thank god a staff member brought out the megaphone shouting,

"Students! There is no need to record please put all of your cellphones away!" The student body let out a collective sigh of disappointment and disapproval. I wish they had stepped in sooner, but better late than never. When we got to my locker Rose joked,

"Wow cameras! You're a superstar Chris!" She did this to try and lighten the mood.

"I have a feeling we're not gonna get much privacy now." Wayne told her. Rose looked at him and said,