The first time i fell in love

what about the end

The day that he left, my sister organized a dinner in her house, so i went there and i prepared some cupcakes for him, i made a lot of them because i wanted to made a sentence with them, my sisters made a big cake and we took hours and hours to finsh them, we had flour all over the kitchen and it was late so he arrived to my sister's house and we were all dirty full of flour, he was laughing at us and he started to throw flour at me, and we ended up all white and ditry, but it was fun.

i went upstairs and i got ready, i changed my clothes and do my hair, when i went downstairs everything was already done, the cupcakes, the cake and everything, the cupcakes said: auf wiedersehen wich means goodbye in german, we put on some music and have a dinner.

he had to go to the airport the next morning early so he went to his house a little bit later, i had bought some presents and souvenirs for him, i had still his futball team t shirt so i also brought it, i even did some letters and got them inside the presents bag, i put some pictures of us two, from the start, and from all the memories we have had.

i was getting nervous as the time passed because i knew it was time for him to go, i had the bag of his things upstairs in my sister's room, so i got up to pick them up and he followed me, but i didn't notice that, i just wanted a little time for me because i was broken for the fact that now everything was over, i took the bag and when i turned around he was standing on the door with a sad face, i looked at him with the same expression and i gave him the bag, he smiled at me and he started taking out thing by thing, he took out the letter first and i told him he had to read it when he was gone, he took out his football t shirt and told me i have to had that t shirt to remeber him, it was his favorite t shirt and i had to say very expensive, but i couldn't help it so i took it.

he gave me a sad look again and some tears started falling out of his face, i was shocked and i didn't knew what to do or say, he just walked some steps to me and he hugged me a long long time, i did the same and i have to say i did cry like a waterfall..

It was the most painful moment in my life, in that moment i was thinking about everything we had, every moment that we had, the good and bad memories, the things we did, the things that made me fall in love with him, and i didn't want him to go anywhere, so i told him i didn't knew what i was supposed to say, he looked at my eyes with pain and he said clearly: i love you!

i was amazed by his words and i said  i love you too, then he held me and kissed me, i was so sad that i couldn't let him go, he told me he would miss me so much and that i've teach him a lot of good things and then he promisse me we will se each other again soon, and he would never forget a person like me. i just started crying so much and i hugged him , and then my sisters came in, they got surprised because we were both crying, i let him go and he hugged my sisters, they also started crying and he told them they were the best sisters in law in the world, he was thankful for everything and then he came back to me, we held our hands and we entwine our fingers, we got down to the door and he said: see yo soon my love and he kissed me on the cheek, he leave and i could remember his sad face, leaving the house and the feeling i got when i close the door. 

i got upstairs to cry even more and his t-shirt was in the bed with a letter above, i couldn't help it but cry, i left the letter beside me because i knew i couldn't read it without breaking down, i pick up the t shirt and leave it in my backpack.

i let myself down in the bed and i took out my ipod to put some music on so i could cry more, when i opened my music and i had a list of songs named : '' i'll never forget you'' i have never seen that before so i opened it and it had all the songs he dedicated me and the songs he sang for me with  his guitar, and some others we pick our favorites.

the same instant i saw them i cried because i knew he did that list. i put play to my favorite song, and i started hearing clearly what it said, and it described exactly what we had, i cry a lot, and my sisters came in to comfort me, they told me i knew that day would come soon or later, so i had to be strong and try to forgot him.

that night i couldnt sleep so i send him a message but he was on the airplain so he didn't answer.