I Like Him A Lot

"I cant do this anymore guys."

Trigger warning ⚠️  (discusses of suicidal thoughts, if you or a loved one are experiencing suicidal thoughts call 988)

~Back to Luke's POV~

Alex was scaring me. He stole my bike and didn't tell me what he was doing or where he was going. I called Joe and Donny and told them everything. They started freaking out. "Do you think he's going to... hurt himself?" Joe asked. "Shit, shit, shit we have to find him he's going to do something stupid! " Said Donny loudly. We all agreed to meet up and Joe's house and Donny picked me up. "Where the hell did he go?" Asked Joe. " I don't know but I'm scared and worried about him he was sounding like he would be gone forever." I said shakily. Suddenly there was a knock on the door and Joe got it. We me and Donny followed him to the door and saw Alex. "You son of a bitch get your flat ass in hear. " Said Joe as he grabbed Alex and dragged him inside. Alex eyes were puffy and I knew that he had been crying a lot. " What the hell were you telling Luke huh, about being gone forever?" Asked Donny and we continued asking him questions.

~ALEX'S POV~

I was just planning on seeing Joe when I went to his house to say goodbye but low and behold Luke was there too and he told Donny and Joe everything. "How the hell could you do that to us?" Asked Donny. "WE WERE WORRIED SICK YOU BASTARD!" Luke yelled. They are stared at me with a mix of questions ans concern in their faces. "I know guys I'm sorry I just I didn't want to make this a big deal but I guess I failed didn't I?" I said avoiding eye contact. " TELL US WHAT YOU WERE GOING TO DO GOD DAMMIT BECAUSE WE WERE ALL WORRIED SICK ABOUT YOU BASTARD." Said Joe. "I doesn't matter anyway." I said. Luke slapped me in the face as the other two stared at me like they both wanted to do the same thing. " I am going to kill myself are you guys happy now!!!" I yelled. The room was quiet enough you could hear a pin drop. "There I said it are you guys happy now?" I asked already knowing the answer. They stayed quiet and stared at me so I decided to break the silence. " I cant do this anymore guys. I just my parents made me feel like shit my whole life and there is so much that one can handle. " I said still avoiding eye contact. "I didn't want to be a burden anymore so I went to try and talk to my parents but as you all can imagine that didn't go so well." I said staring at the floor. " why didn't you just tell me what you felt like my dad knows a good therapist I could have gotten you help?" Asked Luke. " Because I didn't want you to think I was crazy." I said still staring at the floor tears forming in my eyes. " No one would think your crazy." Joe said as he moved closer to my putting his arm around my shoulders. " Alex we can't let you do that let's go back to my house and tell my dad I promise you he can help." Said Luke.  I looked up and I saw Donny crying like crazy. I had never seen him like that before and my heart sank. "I'm sorry guys I'm sorry for scaring you." I said now looking at all of them. "We love and care about you man. " Said Donny grabbing me and hugging me. The other two joined in. 45 minutes later when everything cooled off I hitched Luke's back tot he back of Donnys truck and he sropped us off at Luke's house. "You ready to go inside?" Luke asked. I hesitated for a second and then nodded knowing that I needed help. A lot of help.