the billie plan | b.e.

C H A P T E R T H R E E

BILLIE

"Hmm, hmmm, hmmmm.."

"You're so sweet." Love chuckles as I hum to her stomach. "The baby isn't even formed yet, dummy."

"Whatever. You should make an appointment with your OB so we can get your first ultrasound." I suggest, rubbing the slight bloat she has.

"We?"

"Well I figured I come. We're doing this together, aren't we?" I ask.

"I really appreciate you, Bil, but I still wish it was Jackson." She sighs.

"He left you."

"You don't gotta keep fucking reminding me. I get it." She rolls her eyes. "Look, Love, you don't need to get all mad at me. I'm just the one who's always been here. I mean, fuck, you're having a baby and I'm still sticking around unlike your bum ass baby daddy." I reply.

"He's not a bum. I put this on him." Love frowns. "Love.." I sigh. "You didn't put this on him. He's the one who willingly left after you got pregnant. He's a grown man and was too childish to stay."

"I know. You're right, but I still miss him. Part of me is praying he'll come back, but the other part of me knows he won't." She says.

"Can I still help you? Even if you don't want me in the baby's life like that, but just to help you get through it all?" I ask. "I just feel like it would be weird, you know? Two best friends raising a baby together when they're not together? I don't know. It might just be me." She shrugs.

"Do you really want the baby to grow up with just one parent? Every kid deserves two, loving parents. So what if we're not together? We'd still love this kid more than anything." I tell her. "You're right." Love nods. "I really would appreciate your help."

"I'll be with you every step of the way."

"You're so good to me." She says, hugging me. "I don't know what I did to deserve you."

"I told you I'd do anything for you. If that means dropping everything to be a mother, who the fuck cares? I'd do it in a heartbeat." I respond. "But it's not even your kid. Why do you want to help me so badly with a baby that isn't yours?" She furrows her eyebrows.

"Because I love you, Love. You know that, don't you?" I ask. "I do." She sighs. "You're just so selfless. Are you sure you wanna give up your whole life for a kid?"

"I've always wanted to be a mom. Seems like a perfect opportunity." I chuckle. "You're so amazing." Love rolls her eyes playfully. "I just don't want you doing this alone." I smile softly. "You deserve someone right by your side and I promise to be that person."

"So you're gonna play daddy then, huh?" She laughs. "I mean, you can call me daddy, but I'll be the baby's mommy." I smirk.

"Haha, so funny." She says sarcastically. "It was a joke." I frown. "I'm not calling you that." She rolls her eyes. "It was worth a shot." I sigh.

Love gets a weird look on her face before running to the bathroom. She throws up and I hold her hair back for her after following her in. "You okay?"

"Morning sickness is a bitch." She groans. "I hate everything, B." Love frowns and falls into my arms on the floor.

"I know, baby, I'm sorry." I reply.