the billie plan | b.e.

C H A P T E R T W E N T Y - O N E

BILLIE

I've fallen in love overnight.

Being a mom has made everything different for me in the best way possible.

Grayson is the most perfect baby we could've asked for.

I also think there's something going on with Love again, but none of us will say anything because of the baby.

Last night, she held me tighter than usual when we slept.

Like she never wanted to let go.

And she has this look in her eyes when she smiles. One I've never seen before. It's different.

I don't know what it is though.

"Billie baby, will you help me get up?" Love asks. "Of course." I nod my head and walk over to her. "Where are you going?" I ask and I give her my hands to pull her off the bed.

She's still sore and struggling to walk after giving birth, so she needs help.

"I'm going to the bathroom. Will you watch Gray please?" She replies. "I will." I respond.

I help her to the bathroom before sitting down on her hospital bed. I lean over the side where Grayson is laying in his cradle. I pick him up and rock him in my arms. "I love you, my little baby." I whisper as I kiss his forehead.

Love comes out of the bathroom and sits down next to me. She lays her head on my shoulder and I kiss her cheek. "How you doing, mama?" I ask.

"I'm tired." She yawns. "I know, baby." I reply. "I'm gonna help you, okay? We can relax when we get home. We just have to wait for the discharge papers."

Coincidentally, the doctor comes in with papers and hands them go Love. "Here's the discharge papers. As soon as you sign those, you're good to go."

"Okay, thank you so much for everything." Love smiles. "Of course." Dr. Matarazzo replies. "Congrats on your little one."

We thank her before she walks out the door.

Love signs the papers while I pack everything up after putting Grayson back down. Once we're ready to go, I help her into the wheelchair and wheel us to the elevator, holding Grayson's car seat with him in it with my free hand.

We get down to the car and I help Love get in before putting Grayson in the backseat with her.

I get in the driver's seat and begin driving us home.

When we're there, I help Love out of the car and carry Grayson inside. I hold him close to me and the three of us go to our room. We lay Grayson in his bassinet in our room before changing into new clothes. We lay on the bed and Love lays Gray on her chest. "You happy, baby?" I ask Love with a smile.

"Very." She answers as she grins. "We did it."

"No, you did it. You gave birth and grew this baby all by yourself. You're amazing, Love." I tell her.

"I love you, Billie. So much." She smiles up at me. I look down at her and her eyes lock on my lips.

She looks back up at me and we stare at each other in silence.

It's so obvious what's happening between us. Neither of us will say anything though.

It's too soon, right?

"I love you too, Love." I reply nervously.

Raising a baby together has made me fall even harder for her. I'm in so deep.

I pray she feels the same.

I'm so in love with her.

♡

We all fell asleep, Grayson in his bassinet and me and Love cuddling each other.

Nothing in our friendship feels friendly anymore.

It's so much more than that.

"Billie?" Love groans as she rubs her eyes. "What's wrong, baby?" I ask, waking up from my sleep as well.

"Can you see what Gray needs? I'm so tired." She frowns sleepily. "Okay." I nod.

I get off the bed and cradle Grayson in my arms to calm him down since he's crying. I notice his diaper is wet, so I take him to his nursery, lay him on his changing table and change his diaper.

Once he's clean, I bring him back to the room and rock him in my arms while I sit down. "Thank you, B." Love mumbles in a sleepy tone.

"Of course, baby." I respond.

When Grayson is asleep, I lay him in my lap and kiss his forehead.

♡

Love is feeding Grayson a bottle while I cook dinner for us both. Tomorrow, our families will come over to meet him. For now, we're settling in and getting used to these long nights.

"Baby, dinner's done." I tell Love. "Okay, he's almost done." She says from the living room.

A few minutes later, she comes in the kitchen and sits down on the dining table. With one arm, she holds Grayson, and with the other, she eats.

"Do you need help?" I ask her. "I'm fine. Thank you, baby." She replies. "Of course, mama." I smile softly.

Once we're done eating, I clean our plates and we go back to our room.

I rock Grayson in my arms while Love and I talk. "So, how's your pain?" I ask.

"A little better. These frozen pads are helping a lot." She chuckles. "I think that's so strange." I laugh. "They do work though." Love shrugs. "That's good." I respond.

Once I notice the baby's asleep, I get up and place him in his bassinet before laying back down.

Love and I lay, facing each other while I rub her cheek with my thumb. "I love you so much, Lovey."

"I love you too, Bil." She replies. "You make me so happy."

"That's my goal, baby girl. I plan on making you happy for as long as I live." I grin softly.

"Billie.." Love sighs and breaks eye contact. "What's happening to us?"

"What do you mean?" I ask. "You know what I mean, Bil. There's something between us. I'm tired of pretending like it's not there. It's been there for months and you know it." She explains. "So do you feel it too? What's up?"

"Love... I think I'm.. in love with you."

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now you have to wait for another chapter 🤗

this is so rushed i'm sorry i just need to make these bitches get together already they have a baby together for fucks sake 😞