HATE AND DESIRES (mafia enemies to lovers romance )

CHAPTER TWENTY

Vi's PoV:

Last night I couldn't sleep. The two days I slept with Alex were the most peaceful nights I had in a long time.

But I don't have room for feelings. I can't deny what I feel for him but I have to. For both of us.

I get out of bed and head to the bathroom. I freshen up and take a shower. I might have spent more time in there than usual.

I don't know what to do. I feel angry and sad at the same time. It all feels unreal to me. 

But I must stay strong. For mom and dad. I need to avenge them. And I need revenge for what they did to me when I was younger.

It's always been about that. I've let myself get distracted. Not anymore. I even if it hurts.

I get ready and I walk down to the kitchen. I finally get to eat Melissa's home made breakfast.

I go and sit at the table as Melissa serves me that food. I start eating but then I notice Alex isn't here.

"He went to work early." Melissa says. I think she can probably read my thoughts.

"Did he tell you why?" I ask.

She remains quiet. Then she comes upto me and asks, "did something happen, Vi?"

"What do you mean?" I ask but I know what she means.

She gives me a look my mother used to give me when I got in trouble and she knew.

I miss her.

"Whatever happened was a mistake. I let myself get distracted. And now it's awkward." I say.

"If you ever need to talk Vi, I'm always there for you." She gives me a little smile.

I finish eating and get up from the chair and walk to Melissa. As I'm putting away my plate, as Melissa has told me a hundred times not to, she comes upto me.

I look at her and then she hugs me.

"Vi, I know that you think suppressing your feelings is the best way to keep those around you safe. But maybe they can become strengths too. I just hope you don't hurt yourself." She says.

She sounds so much like mom. I hesitate but hug back. "Thank you." I say.

Then I walk out of the mansion and to my car and drive to the base.

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A week later...

I have been busy with the meeting for discussing the missions for my side of the organisation and how the mafia will carry out the DA mission. New recruits and training has been very exhausting.

I've been so caught up, I didn't realise the time. It's already 6:00 pm. That means I need to report back to the base.

This whole week, Alex and I have been avoiding each other. I haven't even seen him much. The only time I did was when there was a joint meeting regarding the steps that will be taken by the union. How we will work together.

Even then, unless absolutely necessary, we didn't talk.

But that's what I wanted isn't it?

Alex hasn't been sleeping at the mansion. Which means he's been sleeping at the penthouse.

I've been really busy tracking the killer of my parents down.

I emailed Alex about how the search has been going and they said that it's for sure that he's in the Dark Alley, they just don't know where.