Everything she knew about me
Until today was a lie.
She saw the smiles I wore like armor,
But never the cracks beneath.
She thought I stood strong beside her,
But I was always feeling weak.
The friend she thought she knew,
The one who was always near
I was drowning in my silence,
And she never saw the fear.
For six long years, she saw me,
But never what lay inside.
Everything she knew about me
Was just a piece, just a slice.
She knew the girl who laughed,
The one who was always "okay,"
But she never knew the nights I cried,
Or the days I crossed the line.
She thought I held her close,
But I was slipping through her hands,
Trying to balance the weight of us
With feet stuck in shifting sands.
I never meant to hurt her,
But hurt her, I still did.
I thought I could keep this friendship,
But I buried truth amid the rid.
I thought I could make it work,
But the lies caught up to me.
And now I wonder, did she ever know
The girl I pretended to be?
Everything she knew about me
Was a lie I couldn't shake.
The parts of me she clung to
Were the parts I had to fake.
I'm sorry I couldn't stay
The person she thought I'd be.
But the truth is, I was breaking
Under all she couldn't see.
So here I stand, exposed at last,
No mask left to wear, no disguise.
Everything she knew about me
It was never more than lies.
And maybe now she'll see the truth,
The parts I couldn't show,
That everything she thought she knew
Was someone she'll never know.
