I didn't think about you today
and this moment doesn't count.
I didn't think about your girlfriend,
or about how if I were her,
you'd have treated me right,
like I was the only one.
I didn't think about endsems creeping closer,
or the lab exam staring me down in two days,
or how I've already fucked up the last two.
And I didn't think about how
the stress is a constant hum in my head,
like I'm teetering at the edge.
Instead, I took a breath, finally stepped away.
I went out with my friends,
let myself eat something good for once,
window-shopped like I had time to spare,
just enjoyed myself for the first time
since college grabbed hold of me and didn't let go.
And damn, it felt good.
For a few hours, I was just here, in my own life.
So maybe out of sight, out of mind
isn't just a saying
or at least, I hope it isn't.
Because, Brian, whatever it is I feel for you
cannot be the reason
my future falls apart.
