The Red String Of Fate

Episode 100....

Rani pov__
Soon the donation cermony completed, now she is simply sitting inside the temple, while thinking about her husbands.
She is very lucky knowing that she married right men.
It's only because of them today she could face her fear confidently.
Today her love for them crossed all boundaries. She can't express in words how she loves them. She had never imagined that she could love any men so much. She knows clearly they could never be hers, still her love for them will never change.
They never left her mind though knowing she never crossed theirs.
She's so scared that she will stay here being in love with them, waiting for them and then end they will just leave.
She knows its stupid but she she still secretly hope that one day they will love her back.
"Why am I so afraid to lose you all when you all are not even mine" She whispered sadly.
"My heart beats for you all but yours doesn't beat for me that's the rhythm of our love story" She said while standing from her sitting postion.
She moved toward the balcony of temple before looking at the sky with a sad smile.
"Kaise keh du ishq nahi hai tum sabse, mera liya ishq ka matlab hi tum ho sab" She whispered with tears in her eyes.
A lone tear rolled down from her eyes.

She wiped her tears before looking down from the balcony, she saw her husband Arjun is doing something while sitting near a big fountain.

He looks just like a dream that she had dreamed about.
He got the arms that she wants to be wrapped in. He has got the eyes she just wants to get lost in.
He got the smile that she could never resist.
He got the voice that she wants to listen for hours.
They not just her men,they are her home, her rest, her heart and her safe place.
Seeing his muscles moving, a dreamy smile appeared on her face. She wants every single inch of his body pressed tight against her and she'd still say"pull me closer".
She stood there while looking at him with desire filled eyes that burdern on her soul. She could feel it like weight on her chest, a restlessness in her limbs.
She wanted to feel him deep inside her. She is so desperate for his touch.
"God, what the hell I am thinking inside the temple" She said while slapping her face to remove all the unholy thoughts.
"Hey Kanha please forgive me, I made a big mistake" She said with joined hands.
"I promise my Lord, I will never again have such inproper thoughts" She said promising her her Lord.
"Rajkumari" Her maid called while comming inside the temple.
"Mansi, I have made a big mistake. I don't know how I got these thoughts here" She said before turning herself toward her maid.
"Ayein, aise kiya soch liya Rajkumari jo tumhe idhar sochna nahi tha" Her maid asked curiously.
She smiled innocently before moving towards her maid ear. She whispered everything she just thought now. After telling her maid, she moved away nervously. Her heart was beating loudly wondering what her maid is going to think about her.
To her surprised, her maid started laughing.
She gasped before looking at her maid angrily.
"Mansi why the hell you are laughing, did I say anything funny" She asked her friend, who was busy in laughing.
"It's ok Rajkumari, Maximum newlyweds gets this type of thoughts" her maid said while controlling her laugh.
Soon Mansi stopped laughing but still she had a wide smile on her face. She scoffed seeing her friend smiling.
"Seriously? I thought you would scold me for having such improper thoughts and no not every newlyweds thinks like me that too inside a temple" She said before shaking her head in
disappointment.
"Rajkumari, first of all you are a newlywed bride and like this thought will normally arise in your mind. You accidentally thought like that so,i don't think God would be upset with you" Her maid tried to assure her.
Even then also her heart was not at peace still thinking how she could bring such thoughts into the temple.
"Leave it Rajkumari, whatever was to happen has already happened. You should go and light a lamp near God,so that you could feel better" Mansi said.
"You are right" She said while agreeing with her maid.
With heavy heart, she walked towards the Garbhagriha of the temple.
Reaching there, she lighted a lamp before standing infront of her Lord idol.

"Kanha, I swear by this lamp that I will never allow this type of thoughts to arise inside my mind in the temple" She promised while looking at her lord eyes.
She rotated the diya clockwise infront of her Lord idol while reciting prayers, then placed that diya where other diyas are kept.

After keeping, she went all the way down to her knees and bowed her head to the ground.
Sometimes later, she stood up with joined hands while looking at her Lord with sad smile.
"Kanha, I feel like this is all happening due to my idiot love for them. My love them is increasing day by day and that's why it's better to stay away from them for few days so that this could be controlled" She said before walking away from there with grief filled heart.