A Court of Chaos and Coral (Amren x Varian)

Chapter 2: Amren

The song of the chapter is:
Ronan -  Taylor Swift

Amren woke to a someone knocking on the door after a dreamless sleep. Varian had dragged himself over to the door with a groan. It was immediatly clear that he had slept just as badly as her.

"Yes?" Amren smirked. Every morning, Varians voice was an octave deeper than usual, and the best part was, he didn't seem to notice. 

Thesan stood in the doorway, expressionlessly watching her mate. She didn't miss the flick of his eyes, looking him up and down, hovering on his shirtless torso.

"Tarquin sent word. He needs your help with the flooding." Thesan said, quickly averting his eyes. 

Varian sighed deeply and walked back to her.

"Right." He pulled her into a hug, whispering in her ear. "Can I have my shirt back?"

Amren frowned. "I don't think so." She placed a kiss on his forehead. "When will you be back? I need to talk to you about something."

"I'll be back in time for dinner. Is it serious?"

Amren flopped back. "I don't want you stressing, but kinda."

Varian pursed his lips. "But it can wait?"

She nodded hesitantly. It couldn't really, but who was she to stop him? His mate, of course, and if she asked him not to go, he wouldn't, which was exactly why she would let him go.

"Don't get burnt out, please!" She called to his back as he walked out the door. 

He smiled back at her. "Don't get all nervous on me, Am. I'll be fine." 

Amren glanced up at Thesan, who was watching Varian retreat down the hallway. She grinned at him when he turned to her.

"Bloody nice ass, he has." He chuckled.

Amren hummed. "Last time I checked, High Lord, you were married."

Thesan smirked at her. "Robin and I have a deal, if either of us find ourselves in a position where one, or both, of us can sleep with Tarquin or Varian, we are allowed to."

Amren snickered, heaving herself out of bed. "I'm afraid Varian is very much taken."

"Don't like to share, do you?"

"Only if I get to... supervise." She winked at the High Lord.

"Oh, I'm sure Robin  would very much be open to that." He looked her up and down, with a glint in his eye.

"Careful Thesan, you're starting to sound like Helion."

"I'm more like him than people realise." He gave her a last wink before sliding out the door.

~

After she finished processing the conversation with Thesan, and after decided that she might very well take him up on the offer, Amren climbed into a scorchingly hot bath, just the way she liked it.

As the panic that always appeared when she was away from Varian set in, she took a deep breath, and submerged herself in the tub.

The paralyzing anxiety she had been experiencing the last few years was not normal, she knew that full well. The reoccuring dream of Varian being skewered by her bothers and sisters certainly didn't help. She hadn't told him, out of fear that it would scare him, but that didn't change that when she didn't wake with his arms around her, she couldn't breath. Didn't change that any time he left to do anything even slightly dangerous she was overcome by fear, to the point that she couldn't function. Was it protectivness, or possesivness? She didn't think so. She trusted him to never betray her, and to always know his limits, but...

Varian had definitly noticed a change, but he hadn't mentioned it. Perhaps he experienced the same thing, or perhaps he thought Amren would lash out at him if he bought it up. She had to talk to him about it, she thought as she rose from the water. Maybe later, when she told him about her visions. 

~

Amren chose to join Azriel for breakfast, out of will for a distraction, which did not come. She was only reminded of her nightmare and vision when Feyre bought up hearing screaming in the night. Azriel had jumped to her defense, and she had made a mental note to thank him, but when she caught his eye, when she saw the look he gave Eris, guilt began to churn in her stomach.

What was there for her to feel guilty about? That she hadn't broken the news to Azriel that when his mate awoke, he would experiance such an overload of some mysterious power that he could kill them both? That wasn't her fault.

She couldn't tell him until she knew what it was, that was... posessing Eris, and how it had come about, and how they could stop a deadly explosion of a power likely no one knew anything about.