Real or not real? (Five Hargreeves) Book 2

Prologue

guys quick note

what should stellar do with her hair

bc yk how lila bleached hers

i wanna do smth with hers

idk whether to cut it short (it was long in s2)

or like dye it

help

anyway now read

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Blue light flashed before Stellar's eyes.

She felt her feet land on the marble floors of the Commission, but her knees immediately gave way and she fell to the ground, tears still spilling from her eyes. Her head seared with pain and she felt every inch of her body tremble from the effort it had taken to use her powers in such ways.

Lila was next to her, still standing, trying to stay strong, but one glance at her sister was enough to get her to sink down to the floor, choking out a sob. Whether this was for Diego, her biological parents or the Handler, Stellar wasn't sure.

Gently, she reached a hand out and tentatively laid it on Lila's shoulder. Lila slowly leaned into it, and Stellar pulled her sister in a tight embrace. The two girls sat on the floor, their silent cries dappled with occasional sniffles as they were both swept away in their own thoughts, the only comfort being the closeness that they shared.

The Handler was dead.

Their biological parents were dead.

Most of the Commission workers were dead.

But the Hargreeves were alive.

Stellar didn't know what to do. Five had killed her parents, but it was the Handler who had put out the order. She was there, from what Stellar had heard. Did he care? Did he know, when he pulled the trigger, the consequences that his actions would and did have? Did he now?

Stellar wondered if Lila was thinking of Diego. He had reached out to her when she was feeling unsure, vulnerable. He had said that they could be her family.

Did he mean Stellar too? Probably not. She had done something horrible. She wasn't even expecting it to happen. Stellar shuddered as she remembered. The rage and vengeance that overtook her mind, her hands. The inky black veins that spread throughout her powers until there was no purple left in her eyes or around her outstretched hands. She remembered the agonised faces that all four siblings had on their faces, the shrill screams of terror. 

She was a bad person.

She had hurt them in a way that people couldn't even imagine.

Who could forgive that?

Lila shifted in Stellar's arms, and she loosened her grip slightly, but Lila brought her hands up and held Stellar's arms tightly to her chest. 

"What do we do now?" Lila inquired softly.

Stellar thought.

The Handler was gone. No one could or likely would want to bring her back. 

There was nothing for them here, at the Commission.

But where would they go?

Stellar thought about Lila.

Somewhere out there, in one of the years ahead or behind, was Diego.

Stellar knew that Lila loved him. She didn't want to admit it, but she did.

And Stellar knew that, despite her best efforts, she cared about the siblings.

It was almost laughable. It was funny, how she'd only known them for a few days and yet, she knew that she couldn't bring herself to really, physically hurt them even if she wanted to.

What was it?

They all had this...indescribable bond. It was chaotic, flawed, dysfunctional and full of arguments and unspoken trauma, but it held them all together like the strongest glue in the world. 

Watching them interact, even in the briefest moments, Stellar felt that. She knew that they were by each other's sides no matter what, even if they denied it. They would do anything for each other.

Did Stellar and Lila have that? She wasn't sure. 

But she knew that she wanted that. She did't especially care with who, she just wanted to feel that warm, unconditional love. She wanted to know that someone was there for her, no matter what terrible things she did.

Maybe...

Maybe now she could find someone who could give her that. Maybe she could have a second chance at this.

"I don't know." Stellar answered honestly in whisper. "But we'll figure it out."

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A/N

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idk if that made sense

but it sounded nice in my head

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so yes

hope you enjoyed!

so excited to start the s3 arc eeeeeeeeee