Wild hearts run free (Joe Elliott fanfic)

Ch36 soul mates

***********All warnings apply

I sat there and felt all eyes on me. I hurt my knee going off the
bus and ripped my pant leg. I started hurting all over and I could
feel her pain. After sitting there with my face covered I felt
someone put their hand on me.

I looked beside me and Paige handed me my cell. I put it to my ear
and heard Sav going a mile a minute. "Are you crazy? You could of
gotten everyone killed....." The rest was blahs and I started crying.

"Fuck you. Stay out away from me kids. Stay away from me. You
bastards can come home for every little pitiful shit but I can't.
Screw you." I yelled and threw the phone. I stormed out of the
hospital. I couldn't take it anymore.

I went in the court yard to smoke so I could calm down. I just
started crying and crying. Everything from Steve and Ryan's death
all just finally poured out of me. All those years of holding it all
in it just poured out. I knew she meant the world to me. It was
driving me nuts that they weren't telling me anything on her.

Butch came out and I buried my face on his chest
and poured my very soul out on him. I tried to think she didn't
matter to me. That Def Leppard was important and always came first.
I love it but not as much as her. She was part of my life long
before Def Leppard and if anything happened to her I'd walk away
from it all.

The waiting seemed to go on forever. I was bruise, scraped, tried
and nothing Butch said could make me feel any better. That's when I
heard Peters voice, a voice I only heard on the phone. "Butch let me
talk to Joe. Go on in." Butch let me go and I seen Peter. He handed
me a handkerchief and I blew my nose and wiped my tears. "She's fine
mate."

"How do you know? Melvin send you?" I said sobbing a bit still.

"No came on me own. Was just inside. You 'ave a healthy little boy
who's waiting on his da to hold him."

"What about Beth?"

"They 'ave her in surgery. She won't be out for another hour or so.
There's nothing you can do for her. She went into a seizure from a
blood clot. The baby didn't come out breathing at first so he's on a
bit of oxygen."

"How can she be fine?"

"They 'ave her stable but they 'ave to do a hysterectomy on her. The
thing on her ovary exploded. It will take some time. Go see yer son
and when she gets out of surgery go see her. I want you to leave
after dat. The bands waiting for you in the states."

"No!"

"Joe I've never interfered in yer life but this time I am. Let the
doctors do what they 'ave to. Beth will be fine. She's a fighter you
know dat. She's got me, yer family and half the bands family here."
I realized he was right. He was the only one outside of Mutt that
could get me to think rationally.

I went in and right to the nursery. He was small but not as small as
Bell was. He was on a little oxygen. I stood there looking at him.
This nurse said, "You can hold him but you 'ave to wash yer hands."

I went in and washed my hands. I sat in the rocker and she put him
in my arms wrapped in this blanket. She moved the line attached to
him. He made this tiny sound. "Shh. Don't cry little one. Da has
you."

His eyes were closed and he stopped wiggling a bit as I started
rocking the chair. "See you've done this before." He was perfect
expect his left hand. It was curled up. I uncurled it and it wasn't
formed all the way. "He's our little miracle. He's stop breathing
twice."

He opened his eyes when I uncurled his hand. He whimpered and I
smiled at him. "Dat's ok. I still love you." It was what I wanted
and started to feel bad a bit. His eyes were the same color as mine
those emerald green. They were almost jade. He also had the same tiny
mark on his face.

I held him a bit and then the nurse put him back under this warmer
they had him under. It seemed history was repeating itself. I left
the nursery because I couldn't take seeing him not knowing if Beth was
ok. She wasn't. There was nothing I could do but go back and finish
out the last week of the tour.

Or so I thought. I just walked out and walked with my hands in my
pocket to the airport. I could feel everything I ever wanted slipping
away from me even felt Beth slipping away. It was night fall by the
time I got on the plane and I had been up two days straight. Which
was no big deal never really slept anyway on tour.

When I got to the airport Melvin was waiting outside our private jet.
He cursed at me and I hung my head low as I walked on the plane
letting him get it all out. I sat by the window which I rarely did.
My heart sank as we took off.

"Melvin it's not like I missed a show." I said in a deep voice
finally.

"Well bloody might as well. I had to make everyone do yer shit and
overtime."

"You know I really don't give a fuck. I've covered for them when
they had little trivia shit so fuck them. When they had to cover for
me. I've covered for them all me life and maybe it's about time I
think for meself for a change." That got him to shut up for a bit.

"You know I've know you since the 80's and I never seen you like
this. What happened?"

"It's called waking up a little too late." I couldn't speak or look at
anyone. They all corned me in the room and started yelling at me. I
sat there with my shades on hiding the fact I was crying. The only
ones who didn't yell were Phil and Rick. Rick finally seen the tears
coming down my face although I was trying to hide it. He had enough.

He didn't understand why I just sat there but if I said anything I'd
just break down again and I couldn't do that in front of
them. "That's it. Shut up. You guys should be ashamed of yerself.
What is yer bloody problems? I've had it. The love of his life his
very soul mate is hanging on by a thread and all you two can do is
make him feel worst. All because he took off so he could be home for
the birth of his son. You Sav out of anyone should know what dat's
like." Rick said finally.

I felt so empty as if Beth was gone and my very soul was ripped away
from me. I couldn't hear Sav or Viv anymore. I just got up and went
into the bar. I couldn't sleep, didn't eat. I didn't hear nothing
from Dublin. Just my mum called telling me Beth didn't want to see
me anymore.

I had no idea where that came from expect I'd see Sav on the phone
with her. Then my lawyer called telling me she was taken custody of
the kids once she could get back on her feet and find a place of her
own.

That's when I threw Sav against the wall and lost it. All he said
was, "Hurts not knowing doesn't it?" After that I stayed as far away
from him and my performance on stage showed my frustration to Sav.
Vivian apologized to me but the tension between Sav and I was
growing and the whole band felt it. I thought maybe the hysterectomy
was part of her anger on me.

I understood and I wasn't allowed to speak to her. I was eager to
get home to see my kids, finish Cybernets and try something new on
Beth. Phil and I had been planning a two week tour with Cybernets
for mouths. Came home around September 30th or October 1st finally.

Vivian and Rick came in with me. Rick was like glue to me because he
could see I need his shoulder and to keep me from killing Sav. I
still didn't rest or eat and Rick came in the studio. I was just
sitting there. "Mate go to her."

"Why bother? It's what she wants and Sav wants."

"Is dat what you want to believe, dat all of sudden she's given up on
you? She hasn't. She's confused. Christ mate she just...."

"Don't tell me what she's fucking going through. I was there I know
what the fuck she's going through but she's made her mind up. You
don't know shit because yer not there, neither does Sav. I hope to god
one day Sav gets a taste of his own medicine. Now get the fuck out of
my studio." I yelled at him.

"Well if you know part of her reason maybe you'd change yer stubborn
mind." He yelled and slammed a newspaper in front of me. "Seems yer
ex is making waves again but what do you care. Guess its true then."

I heard the door slam and I picked up the paper. There was a 2 page
article with an interview given by Stormy. The headline read 'It's
true when the saying about sex, drugs, and rock n roll for lead
singer Def Leppard.'