Felix Pov
"Are you sure you don't want anything to eat, I can quickly wrap up Raman if you want." hyunjin asked as he handed me a cup of hot chocolate.
It hadn't been long since it started pouring outside, it seemed like the storm would go on for the whole night.
I don't mind it though, I love rainy weathers.
The pitter patter sound of rain drops falling onto the roof brings me at ease, although I'm not quite a fan of the booming sound lighting displays as clouds seem to clash with each other.
I don't really know why I'm so fond with rainy weather's, I'm quite okay with sunny weather's but I've never really been that happy with it compared to grey stormy clouds we are facing.
Maybe it's cause I just find peace in the pattering sound or maybe it's cause I don't feel like I'm the only one crying.
"I'm fine really, I'm not really hungry yet." I say with a small smile as I take a little sip of the warm drink.
"Okay but if you are let me know and I'll make something for you to eat, if you need an extra blanket let me know, I'll get the first aid kit and be right back." He says after handing me the thick, yet soft blanket as he rushed his way upstairs to get the kit.
I placed the blanket on my thighs, I was still pretty warm with my hoodie and still had hot coco to warm me up.
Kkhami was already fast asleep on the sofa beside me, he must've really been tired having to walk around so much.
A minute later hyunjin came back down with the kit in his hand and ointment on the other.
"You know all of this isn't necessary, I'm really okay, plus it's just a couple of scratches."
"You say that as if a bruised cheek, busted lip is nothing. Not to mention your sleeves are bloody and I'm pretty sure you got a brusied shoulder as well." He says while soaking alcohol onto a small cotton ball.
"I don't know why your dad is such an asshole but I'll surely give him a good knockout the minute I see him again." he says while gently placing the cotton onto my cut lip.
"I'd rather you not do that, the last thing I need is you getting hurt."
"I'd rather take the punch's then seeing you hurt like this again lix, you don't deserve this."
I felt my heart ping a little, not cause hyunjin was very much close to me but by how caring he was.
"Why weren't you responding to any of my calls or texts either way?" He asks after handing me an ice pack to place on my cheek.
"My phone was on mute at the time and well I couldn't really respond due to well event's that led on."
"Well I'm just glad I found you and your okay." He said with a small smile and I couldn't help but return the gesture.
After hyunjin had finished cleaning and treating the wounds on my face he headed upstairs to grab me a clean hoodie.
"It might a bit big on you but it's better than nothing."He says with a small smile.
"It’s fine really thanks." I say looking at the Grey oversized hoodie.
"You sure that those stains were just from your bleeding lip?"
"Yeah really I'm not injured anywhere else." I say assuring him despite it being a total lie.
I'm not ready for him to know that part of me yet, not ever.
"Okay then, your room is just down the hall, I'll be upstairs in my room if u need anything just yell okay." He says as I nod.
"Thanks again Hyunjin, I promise I'll repay you for this."
"No need to, it's what friends are for." he says with a smile ruffling my hair before he heads upstairs.
For some reason it kinda hurt when he said that.
A simple word that somehow brought my mood back down.
I frown a bit looking at the warm cup of hot chocolate in my hand, the little marshmallows that had long gone melted.
Maybe I'm letting my emotions take to much of a toll on me.
Hyunjin just sees me as a friend and I should be happy about that, despite the feelings I've already grown to have for him.
It's stupid.
Me falling in love with a guy just because he cares for me.
It's silly and stupid to fall in love with him knowing he'd never feel the same.
Besides no one would fall in love with someone like me.
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After I had finished my warm drink and changed into the grey hoodie hyunjin had given me, I made my way to the guest room just down the hallway.
To be honest it was far too cozy for a simple guest room.
It practically had everything a regular bedroom would need.
A little study table, it's own bathroom and a comfy bed.
It also had a pretty view of the garden outside.
Plopping onto the bed I sighed in content before shifting and getting into the covers just laying there staring at the ceiling.
It's not like I could fall asleep anyways, not when my head is replaying today's events.
It sucks.
Mom's not in town.
Dad's being a bitch.
Mid terms are approaching and I'm slowly sinking back into a dark void.
Maybe I deserve all of this.
The hate.
The pain.
The abuse.
All of it.
Maybe it's my punishment from the universe.
A punishment I deserve for being the worlds greatest failure.
I sigh rummaging through my pockets for my phone.
10:45 p.m
Not even midnight yet and I still feel like crap.
I frown looking at bright lit screen before shutting it off and placing it onto the knight stand.
Maybe I should just try and fall asleep rather than self deprecating myself.
I already know how fucked up of a person I am, I don't need anymore of that tonight.
Maybe I should really consider just ending it all.
I'm sure that'll make dad happy for once.
A.n:
Hope you guys liked this chapter despite it being short and all.
Also a quick question, which I'm really hoping you guy's will answer to.
Actually two questions.
1.Should I create a TikTok account where I'll post on like my stories and ideas for upcoming stories?
2. I have a skz editing account where I post my edits of skz members, Would you like me to put the link up in my profile?
