Rui
I can't stop the thoughts from spinning. My mind won't let up, and it's like I'm suffocating under all the noise. Why did I yell at Nene like that? Why can't I just let her in? But she wouldn't get in. No one does.
I sit against the wall of this old shed, this forgotten corner of the world where no one can bother me. It's cold, but I don't care. I need the quiet— or maybe I just want to be alone. I don't know anymore.
"They all think I'm some sort of freak..."
The words come out bitter, and I can feel this anger bubbling up, but I don't know where to put it. Everything's gone wrong. I don't fit anywhere. Not with the other kids, not even Nene anymore. She's be better off if I just disappeared, wouldn't she?
I close my eyes and let out a shaky breath. This thought— the one I've been trying to push away for so long— it keeps creeping back in. What if I wasn't here anymore? What if I could make all of this stop?
For a second, just one second, I think about it. I think about how easy it would be to just slip away, to stop feeling like this. But... something holds me back. There's this tiny voice in the back of my head, telling me that I don't really want that. That it's not the answer.
"But what am I supposed to do?"
I don't have any answers. Just this empty feeling that nothing's ever going to get better. I bury my face in my arms and squeeze my eyes shut, trying to shut out the world, trying to block out everything.
Nene
I don't understand. Why did he yell at me? Why is he so angry? I don't know what to do— I just know that I can't leave things like this.
I sit in class staring at the clock, counting down the minutes until I can see him again. I know where he's going— the spot behind the school. He always goes there when things get bad. It's like his escape, but... I don't think it's helping him anymore.
My heart aches just thinking about it. What if... what if I can't help him? What if he's pushing me away for good?
But I can't give up on him. I won't give up on him.
When the bell rings, I don't waste any time. I grab my bag and head straight to the spot. I don't know what I'm going to say, but I have to try. I can't leave him alone like this.
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Saving Me: Ruinene
FanfictionCONTAINS GOOD GRAMMAR In this emotional journey, Rui Kamishiro and Nene Kusanagi have been inseparable since childhood, bonded by their love for creating shows and performances. As they grow older, Nene begins to struggle with social anxiety, while...
