Hearts entwined, forbidden love ( Book 5 of Floyrince)

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As I lay there, wrapped in Luka’s arms, I felt a rush of emotions flood over me. The warmth of his body next to mine was comforting, grounding me after the whirlwind of what had just happened. I could still feel the aftershocks of pleasure coursing through me, a sweet reminder of our connection.

Luka gently brushed a strand of hair from my forehead, his touch tender and soothing. I sighed contentedly, leaning into him as I reveled in the intimacy of the moment.

You did so well, he murmured, his voice low and filled with warmth. The praise wrapped around me like a soft blanket, filling me with a sense of security.

As I settled into the comforting afterglow, I felt a wave of emotions rising. I let out a shaky breath, a mix of relief and joy flooding through me. This was the emotional release I had been craving—an outpouring of everything I had held inside. I felt free, light, and incredibly connected to him in a way I hadn’t expected.

Luka’s fingers traced patterns on my arm, a grounding gesture that brought me back to reality. I glanced up at him, seeing the softness in his eyes as he regarded me. How are you feeling? he asked, genuinely concerned.

I feel… amazing, I don't know why, I replied, my voice barely above a whisper.

That’s normal. Take your time. I’m here for you, it's because you let go and released everything.

Subs, I asked. I wanted to ask if that wasn't for subs.

It happens to everyone, subs are the one's who experience it a lot, he said kissing my forehead.

This is a weird dream I said as I felt the fatigue settling in, a delicious heaviness that made me want to sink deeper into him and let sleep take over.

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Luka

This was a weird dream, the words Levi said brought me back to reality and I looked at him as he slept in my arms.

Fuck I had lost control, how could I do that, I got up from his bed and dressed. I grabbed my stuff and looked at him, I needed to clean him. I cleaned him and left quickly.

I got to my room and locked myself inside. I grabbed my hair and pulled till it hurt. How can I do that to a drunk person, my cousin at that. I had a girlfriend for fuck's sake.

I cheated on her, I fucked my cousin, my drunk cousin. I messed up big time. I sighed, what's done is done. It's either I take responsibility for my actions or tell him, it didn't mean anything and that we were both drunk. That worked well, how will I ever look my family in the eye. Grandpa and grandfather, fuck I messed up.

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Levi

I woke up to a terrible headache. My body was in pain. I had to go home, or else dad will kill me. I got up and felt my ass in a lot of pain. I groaned loudly. What did I do yesterday, who brought me back.

I took some painkillers . And lay on my bed waiting for the pain I was experiencing all over go away. When I felt better I got up. My ass still hurt , I opened my eyes in horror.

I ran to the bathroom ignoring the pain. I looked in the mirror and felt my life flash before my eyes .

No, please, no,.....I said as tears brimmed in my eyes. I was covered in bite marks, hickeys all over my neck. There was a hand print too. It was all a bad dream.

Events of last night started replaying in my head. Fuck I initiated the kiss, I kissed my cousin, and let him fuck me. I enjoyed every minute of it. How could I do that. I wiped my tears and got inside the shower. I washed myself and stopped crying. No use crying over spilt milk.

I was going to go to Luka's room and we were going to talk. He wanted it right, we could reach an understanding, try to forget about all this and we will laugh about it in the long run. He was my cousin, but if I told him I was attracted to him how will he feel. He wasn't straight, that one I knew now, but what if it was all alcohol. I finished bathing and applied on lotion and deodorant. I brushed my teeth and dried my hair, I rummaged through my closet looking for a turtle neck but I didn't bring any, I went to Jay's closet. He didn't have his either. I looked at his hoodie and put it on. It was baggy but it hid most of the bite marks and hickeys if not all. At least the hand print wasn't visible now.

Why did I have to have such a light skinned body. I wore my basketball shorts and put on my socks and slides. I could do this right. I made my bed and threw my torn pyjama t-shirt in the trash can.

Jay will be back any minute now, and we were supposed to be at home, in an hour. I left my room and made my way to the elevator. I went to Levi's floor. Then stood in front of his room. I was nervous but I'll be okay, how bad can it be,we can pretend like it never happened.

I knocked on the door and waited. The door opened and I freezed. A girl opened it. She was gorgeous. She was in shorts and wearing a pink bra, her hair was a mess. She had spent the night. I put on a smile.

Hi, how can I help you she asked.

Uh.... I'm looking for Luka, is he around I asked.

Yeah, hold up, babe, someone is at the door she said.

Babe, fuck, I had to keep it together. This sucked. Luka came to the door, he was in boxers, I forced myself to stare at his face, and put on a genuine smile.

Levi, he said looking at me as if he was bored.

Hi, can we talk, alone I signed.

Fuck I had spoken to him yesterday, I should speak today. What was wrong with me.

I'll be back, Luka said kissing his girlfriend. I forced myself to look away.

Conceal don't feel, You can do it. I forced myself.

I followed Luka to the end of the hallway.

What he said. I swallowed and looked down. He's back to being cold again.

About what happened yesterday....

It was a mistake, a huge mistake. We are cousins it shouldn't have happened. We were both intoxicated, we had sex, it's not a big deal, forget about it, I already did and don't ever tell anyone what happened, Luka said interrupting me.

I...

Levi, we are family, forget about it. I have a girlfriend and I'm happy with her, and let's just get back to acting like we don't know each other, Levi said. I nodded.

Good boy he said then left. I watched him go, he got in his room and I let my tears fall. Fuck having feelings I was done, I wanted to stay away from Luka for the rest of my life. I was going to avoid family get together's like the plague. I wiped my eyes. Crying wasn't worth it.

I made my way to the elevator and went back to my floor. I got inside my room, I felt shitty.

I thought ut was you, is that why hoodie Jay said coming out the bathroom. I looked away.

Levi, he said. He had seen me.Tears weld up in my eyes.

Who hurt you,he asked his voice cold.

No one, I said. I wouldn't tell him, he and Luka where best cousins. I will never let anything ruin the relationship of my loved ones not even me. I will cry and be okay tomorrow.

Levi, he said crouching near me.

Why do humans feel, it hurts, it hurts so bad. I hate this, why didn't I fall for someone else I asked looking at Jay , I let my tears fall.

Oh, Levi, Jay said he stood up and hugged me, I cried in his arms.

Wanna talk about it, he asked.

I thought I didn't get hard, I had sex for the first time yesterday and he just....fuck, I said crying.

He, you are gay, and who is he, Jay asked.

I wouldn't give him a name, Jay was crazy when he wanted to be, I didn't need my cousins fighting.

Pan, I... it doesn't matter, can we go home, I want dad, I said.

Okay, I won't force you to tell me, I'll always be here for you okay, Jay said. I nodded.