So y'all together? Kes asked me as I'm FaceTiming her from DR.
Nope, just my baby daddy , I laughed as he's looking dead in my face.
Bitch you're crazy, what have these niggas did to the sweet Tala? She laughed as he's mean mugging me.
Girl turnt me into the bitch that I should have been years ago, I replied looking into his eyes.
Yes I loved him and yes I want to be his lady forever but he need to stop supporting people who don't mean him no good.
I get you support your family when you're up but for how long?
Then your family don't like the people you are trying to be with for life for no reason.
Your one fake cousin is in love with you, she hates me because you love me .
Telling Kes I call her back, we are here for three more days and it's beautiful.
The kids are with Life and our daughter is here. He took her to a carnival and she loved it, Charlie is a great baby and I know I needed to stop playing with him for her sake .
Come we go to eat? He asked as Charlie runs out of the condo.
I guess, I replied as she runs straight to her daddy.
Chad
Watching her as she let our daughter eat off her plate, she had me so stupid . Like why you have to treat me so bad? I just want to love you, I say making her look up at me.
I don't treat you bad, she replied as Charlie is climbing all over her.
You do, you know I'm in love with you and I need you , I say as she just looked me in the eyes.
I had to pay you to come on vacation with me and our daughter, I say as she just watched me
Okay because we aren't together, she replied.
But why? I asked
You're disrespectful, she replied .
I'm not, I replied
You are , she meanly say
Watching her I just didn't know what to do to keep her. Like if I become crazy and aggressive that will turn her off and I might not never see her but what do I have to do to keep her from leaving me?
I felt like I couldn't breathe without her. I just wish she understood that .
10 pm
Watching her as she walked towards me, we came back , I put Charlie to sleep and now I'm just laying outside looking at the stars.
I felt like she didn't love me like I loved her. I felt like the break up wasn't called for. But I had to understand that this is a woman not a little girl , she isn't talking no bullshit .
Sitting on my lap, like she sent so many mixed signals and I hate it. One minute she loves me then the next I'm the enemy.
Just letting her get comfortable on top of me, she got on a night shirt that's barely covering that ass.
Putting the cover over us, she made me her bed.
Just enjoying the breeze, I relaxed my eyes.
1230
Waking up, we are still outside and she's laying on my chest sleeping. Damn I said rubbing my hand across her body.
Trying my best not to wake her, we needed to go into the house .
Picking her up, I carried her into the house, she barely moved.
Taking her into the room we slept together in, I laid her down.
Going back out I locked up and checked on a sleeping Charlie. Kissing my baby, I covered her little body.
Just watching Tala sleep, I loved her.
Are you gonna watch me sleep all night? She softly says still with her eyes close.
Yes I love to watch you sleep, I replied.
Opening her eyes, she looked into my eyes.
I'm not going anywhere, but we do need help , maybe a therapist or something because I have a hard time trusting you, she says.
I'll do anything to make you happy , I replied as she just watched me.
I will do anything to have her back to normal. I just want to cater to her and be that man for her and my kid.
