After The Jeremy situation I was not trying to even date. So I decided I wanted all my kids to go with their fathers and I just take a trip with myself.
It was hard letting the kids go because I love them so much, but I haven't been out the state in over 2 years, so it was time to travel a little.
So I booked a trip to Spain 🇪🇸. Shopping and eating is all I wanted to do.
Before I left Chad sent some roses to the house for my birthday and it was a deposit into my account for 30g , I was blowed because we wasn't even speaking like that but I was happy and I did thank him , he replied by saying I was welcome and told me to enjoy my vacation.
When I got to Spain the room that I booked was replace and updated to a master suite, shit was so nice and I knew he was behind it. I thanked him again but he had me in my feelings because nigga all you had to do was be great for me and you couldn't , but I wasn't gonna dwell on that shit , it was over and done.
Life sent me 5g and some chocolate before I left and gave me some money to shop with, I was blowed also, like why you niggas wasn't good for me when I needed y'all to be?
Enjoying dinner to myself I needed this break.
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Chad
Sitting at my daughter's swimming lessons, I had my oldest and both of my kids with Tala for a few weeks. Tala was in Spain for her bday, I wish I could have took her, that's been her to go to place forever. I sent her a few dollars for her trip and I updated her room . I knew where she was staying because she made sure she gave both of us her location just in case something happens. I respected her for that.
Everyday I think about her, I dream about her. I wish she would come back to me but I know I fucked that up.
I pray one day I can get her back and I felt like if I just supported her dreams and let her live she would one day take me back.
For Christmas I wanted to buy her a new car but my brother said that was weird but a few days after her car was giving her a hard time so she had no choice but to call me and I went running.
I convinced her it was time to get a new car and she said no at first but once the dealership told her how much she would have to kick out to get the Benz she had fixed, she changed her mind, she didn't need me to put down nothing because her credit was A1 but I wanted to put down something so I wrote a check for 60g and just gave it to the car dealer, she had no clue that I put that much down until her first payment came and she seen she only owned 6g.
She cried and told me thank you over and over and I accepted it, I told her she had the kids, I couldn't let her drive around in a bad car.
So yes I was trying to use my money to get her but also I wanted to let her know I loved her.
She ain't fall for no shit , she wasn't chasing behind me but I felt a little relieved, she did FaceTime for my kids on a regular and she texted me back when I text her I love her when I'm in my feelings.
Life wanted her back with me, he said he didn't want no other nigga around his kids and I didn't either . Like we both was on the same page but I fucked up so it's my fault I'm divorced and cannot move on.
Picking up a call from my brother, this nigga was crazy, he was married and loving his wife but he had an issue with her oldest son.
Alonzo is 20 and ain't doing shit, he just want to smoke and fuck all day and my brother ain't with the shit.
He is the breadwinner of the house so he feels his rules should apply and Tina , his wife don't listen.
Bitch I'm coming to California, he says as I'm looking down at my phone.
Dude you serious? I replied looking at this fool. It looks like he's at the airport, yeah nigga I'll be to your house in a hour, I told you that bitch and her kids can have it. I don't have time for the disrespect, he says .
We talked the other night and he told me he was going to leave her but I didn't think he was serious. This nigga real deal was sick of the shit and he really left. He talked shit but he never left in the past so maybe this time he is for real .
2 days pass
My brother was home with me and we just been chilling . My kids are home also and everything is everything .
Dude who is that? My brother asked as Tala pulls up.
My wife I say, standing up from off the sofa shirtless .
Your ex wife, he laughed looking at me.
Dude knew I was still in love with her and will forever be. He tells me on a regular that I'm stupid for letting anyone get in between us.
Tossing a pillow from the chair at him, he laughed
Damn I whisper to myself as I'm watching her walk towards me , the whole front of our house was glass, you can see straight in and out .
Skin so beautiful, the shape of her body was everything . She had her hair straighten. She's wearing this yellow skirt set so I can see all the curves and the thickness of her body.
Man I miss her so much and I just want a hug .
I know I'm looking like a creep standing in the hallways as she walks up.
I knew she was coming I just didn't know when .
Locking eyes with her, I could tell that she thought I was something she miss to, like I know her body, I made love to it , I knew all her looks and stares , I studied her like a book and still fucked up.
