It was one of the first hockey games today, and we had to cheer on the sidelines for our very own special team. I really didn't feel like it at all today because I could see Lucas's smug grin all the way on the ice. If I had a hockey stick, I probably would have smacked it right off. Then I would have turned to Jenny and done the same thing. Instead, I was forced to participate in something I'm not passionate about anymore, and I hated it.
But Gary came to the game. I saw him in the stands with that girl that I had seen him with before. He hasn't told me who that is, but I couldn't believe it when I felt a little jealous to see him laughing hard over something with her. I nearly fell down when I saw that, and Caroline had a lot of choice words for me that she whispered underneath her breath with that big bright grin on her face, the one that dazzles the crowd.
I don't know why I still do this to myself. Cheer used to be something I loved. I loved the girls and the trips we took with each other. But now I feel like an outsider looking in. These girls don't include me in things. They don't smile at me anymore. I'm just someone on the team who doesn't belong.
Where do I belong, though? No where. I have no place for me, and I know it. And I hate it.
- Orchid, October 8th, 1994
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The Tale of Tomorrow (Gary, AYAOTD)
FanfictionThey say you'll never forget your first love. Maybe that's why I've kept this journal instead of burning it like all my other ones from when I was a teenager. It's battered and missing some pages throughout, but it holds the memories from my senior...
