I don't want you like a "Bestfriend" | C.S.C x Y.J.H ✔️

i don't want you like a best friend

Jeonghan almost screamed in frustration.

"What's wrong with you?", Joshua looked at him weirdly.

"Can you ask this question to Seungcheol?"

"What happened?"

"He's avoiding me. I thought it'd be easy now that the kids know and understand but Seungcheol hasn't touched me since. Touched me?! He hasn't even looked in my direction. I'm frustrated, so frustrated."

"Maybe he's just not in the mood to have sex, Jeonghan."

He was hurt at the statement, "Do I look like a sex-crazed person to you?"

Joshua looked him up and down, "These days, yeah".

Okay, he was frustrated, a little bit horny and frustrated.

"It's not just about that. We have completely stopped hanging out. We don't drink together, we don't eat together. Hell, do you know how many meals I've missed because I'm so used to Seungcheol asking me if I had something to eat or If I would like to eat with him or just barging in with food? He isn't doing that anymore and I keep losing track of time."

So, he was frustrated, a little bit horny, a lot more hungry and frustrated...

"...and I'm scared", He muttered.

"Why?"

"He is changing and I don't know why he is changing. Is it because now members know about us, it's weird for him? What is it, Joshua? You two live on the same floor. Did he say anything to you?"

"Nothing. He seems really busy. Maybe it's just that, he's busy."

"Yeah. It's not like I'm his first priority."

"But no matter how busy he gets, he always pays attention to you, no?", It was like Joshua suddenly changed his mind.

"Yeah but-

"I think he's changing."

"You do?"

"And I think you should be scared."

"I-

"The only way to get to know is confront him."

"Really? What if he's actually busy and this just stresses him more?"

"What if he's simply avoiding you and your silly confrontations?"

"Silly?!"

"I'm not saying that. He probably thinks so, with the way he's avoiding you."

"Whatever it is, he shouldn't avoid me."

"Exactly!"

Maybe Joshua had the best intention but Jeonghan didn't. He was already on the edge and this just pushed him off.

Seungcheol looked like he just cut a call as Jeonghan barged in his room without knocking.

"I was just coming to you."

"After two weeks?!"

Seungcheol sighed, "We will talk about that but first, there is something else".

"No, there isn't anything else. You won't distract me from the topic."

"It's important, Jeonghan-ah".

"This is more important."

Seungcheol sighed, Jeonghan continued, "Seriously, what's going on?"

"Nothi-

"It's not nothing and we both know it. Seungcheol...you know you can talk to me, right? We are bestfriends before anything."

"I DON'T WANT YOU LIKE A BESTFRIEND", Jeonghan physically jumped at how hard Seungcheol's words came at him.

For a moment, his nerves were a wreck and he just wanted to rush out of the room.

But he tried to keep himself calm, "What, what do you mean?". It hurt to speak, "Are you really going to throw away our so many years of friendship-

"No! God, you don't understand", Seungcheol seemed like he would pull his hair out any moment, "I want more. Not just friendship, not just sex. Way more."

Then it started getting to Jeonghan, a strange feeling gripping his heart.

"I want your body but I also want the rest of you, whole of you. I want to talk dirty to you but I also want to whisper sweet nothings to you. I want you to end up in my bed every night but I also want to wake up with you in my arms every morning. I want to say I lust for you but I also want to say I love..."

Seungcheol stopped himself. But Jeonghan knew. He wasn't stupid.

"And I've been wanting it for years now. Everybody keeps on telling me how obvious I am, yet you are so oblivious."

Okay, maybe he was.

"I kept on suppressing these feelings and telling myself that this physical thing would be enough. But honestly, there was a hope in me. A hope that maybe this would take me somewhere but I was wrong, so wrong and you made it clear when you talked with the members. You sounded so sure about what's our equation. I just couldn't bring myself to touch you after that. I'm so torn between having you in any way and wanting you in every way."

There was a pause and when those words came, it not only crashed the silence but Jeonghan's heart as well, "I love you, Jeonghan-ah, I love you so much", Seungcheol choked, tears streaming down his cheeks, "it has started to hurt me more than I can bear".

Jeonghan felt something twisting in his chest, "Cheol- I-"

As Jeonghan struggled with the words, Seungcheol seemed to understand something, "You don't feel...", He inhaled a deep breath and wiped his tears, "Just forget this ever happened".

Jeonghan should've said something. As tears kept on making their way even when Seungcheol kept on harshly wiping them, he should've wiped them for him. But Jeonghan did that one thing he shouldn't have done; he ran away.

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